There are moments where I struggle so intently to see her face, to smell her hair, or to kiss her cheeks. I long to see her again. To hold her. To love her. I know she was really, really here for a moment, but the number of days since I last touched my beautiful baby keep adding up and I'm trying so very hard to keep telling myself that she was really here. She was. She was real. She was happy, She was beautiful. She was loved. All I have to convince myself of those things is the pain I feel from her absence, the tears that flood my eyes, and the photographs that we took.
Oh how I miss this sweet girl and her dinosaurs. She was the most beautiful little girl and she loved the ugliest of things! I loved that about her. Dinosaurs, bugs, lizards, roosters, cars, and myth busters. None of it made sense to me, but its who she was. I would give anything to see her sign any of the above just one more time.
I'm desperate to see her again. Absolutely desperate. My heart is so broken. It hurts so very much.