Another night in Omaha

Ashley is tucked safely in the bed in her room and her Aunt Kathy is baby sitting while I snuck away to type. How thankful I am to have today behind us. I am praying for an uneventful night. Ashley's temperature is down tonight, but WBC continue to be very high. She looks more peaceful tonight as she sleeps. Her tummy is a little softer and color is also looking better. I just visited with a nurse who was sharing with me what a nasty infection she is fighting. Apparently this is one of the big ones, but she said that it is amazing that Ash has managed to stay off of the vent with this particular bug. That made me smile because even though I know that Ash is fighting hard I truly believe it is God. He is listening and answering the many prayers that go up for my Ashley. I am so thankful we have avoided the OR today.

As I was caring for Ashley's ostomy today I got so tickled at my sister. When I looked over at her she was hiding her face under her jacket and kept telling me to let her know when it was safe to look again. She is so funny. All of Ashley's "extras" make her nautious. She could never be Ashley's mom, but I am so thankful she is Ashley's aunt. I guess I have just become so used to all of the wounds, and bags, and buttons, and lines. I am so not cut out to be a nurse, but I'm her mom so I can do this. Ashley has been busy trying to unpack her wound all by herself. When I remove her hand she shakes her head "no, no" to me. Even when she is sleeping she is stubborn. I love this about her because I know she is a fighter. God made her this tough and strong willed so she could endure all that she goes through.

We have had precious moments together this evening. She wanted me to kiss on her fingers and toes. When I would stop she would reach out, eyes closed, until she either put her hand or foot into my mouth. How badly I needed to see that she remembers all of our silly games. I am looking forward to Ashley coming back to me as she starts to heal and feel better. God gives me those "tiny gifts" to keep me going.

Tonight I feel encouraged and strong. I don't know why but I feel like we are going to start turning the corner soon. Thank you for praying and loving my Ashley. I love being her mom. Good night.