Settling down for the night

We were able to avoid all of the potential "uglies" that we discussed this morning for today. Unfortunately I am afraid they will be decided on in the morning during rounds. Ashley is in bed and trying to settle in for the night. She is watching Blues Clues while I watch her little eye lids get droopy. They will be trying a new med tonight in hopes that it will relax her enough so that she may sleep. They are also sending more samples to lab for cultures and are putting her in a contact isolation situation until the results return. The fluid that was removed on Wednesdays surgery did grow back positive for a type of staph infection. So she now has a very bad yeast called Candida Globratta and Staph in her peritoneal fluid. At this point nothing has grown out in the blood. I am thankful for that. Unfortunately if you want to pick up an infection while trying to recover from surgery than the hospital is the place to do it. They continue to add meds to try and battle the infections.

Tonight I find myself missing the kids and Dave so very much. I was so touched by their little messages. I really love those guys. Dave told me as he picked up Al from Cheerleading practice tonight that she asked one of the moms if they would please show her Dad how to fix her hair for the upcoming competition. She didn't think he would do a very good job. How my heart breaks for all the burdens large and small that the kids are facing because their mom is gone. Ms. Kristi assured Allie that she would be there to fix her hair for her and I can just imagine the relief she must have felt. Thank you Kristi for all your help. We love ya.

Night time is the hardest time for all of us I think. We miss the night time routine in our house of spending time with each of the kids tucking them in and catching up on what goes on inside their young hearts. I miss praying with them each night and I miss jumping into their beds with them to say good night. I miss checking on them after they are fast asleep and placing kisse on top of their heads that they never know I left there. I wonder who they will be when Ash and I get home?

Dave sounds tired to me. I know he is very torn about the situation we are in. How badly he wants to be here with Ash, but we have responsibilities at home too. He carries such a heavy burden. Tonight I will pray that God will lighten his load and allow him to breathe a little. Ashley is a lucky girl to have him for a daddy.

Just a little personal note to my nieces and nephews who so faithfully pray for their baby cousin Ashley. Jake, Jessie, Mckenzie, Bayly, Josh, Isaac, Seth, Morgan, and Little Levi I love you all so much and I love to read your messages to Baby Ashley in her guest book. I hope to bring her home soon so each of you can see her, hold her, play with her, and give her tiny kisses from afar. You are all so very precious to Uncle Dave and Aunt Trish. Keep praying for her because I know Jesus hears your every word. I love you guys. Good night