Goodnight from Ashley
We are trying to settle Ash down for the night, but she seems to struggle around this time. The last couple of days around 5:00p.m. she begins to get very restless and things start happening. Tonight it almost sounds as if she has a head cold. She is coughing a lot of mucus and just doesn't feel good. I am afraid we are going to be up all night again. Her temperature is up so they have sent more blood and urine cultures to the lab. The daily up and downs can be really discouraging. My prayer for her tonight is that the Lord will just hold her closely and let her sleep.
I have always known that we needed to share Ashley's story with others, but along with telling her story I have been scared of what others may think of my family. Our hearts have been so open and honest with what we are experiencing through her life. Some days we are broken and blessed all at the same time. People tell us how strong we are and what an example we have been, but honestly we are just a mom and a dad who are fighting for another day. There are times when we wonder if we are makeing the right decisions for our baby. The strength that people say they see does not come from us. It only comes from Christ living in us. I am not a great mom. I am just a mom. A mom with a broken heart trying to keep my head up and my eyes on Him, trying to find the lesson in all of this for myself and my family. If Ashley's life and her experience can bring others to Him or bring hope to someone who thought they had none, or bring Glory to God then all praise goes to Him. When you can truly begin to pray that only His perfect will be done and not your selfish will then you find yourself empty before His throne and ready to receive what it is He has in store for you. I pray that my heart can continue to ask for His will to be done, and I beg of Him that I will have the strength to accept whatever that may be.
So tonight I will thank Him for another day that He has given me with my sweet Ashley. I will praise Him for creating her exactly as He did. I will ask Him to use her story in a way that only He intends. I will take my hurts and lay them at His feet. I will thank Him for allowing me to be the mom who holds her hand . I will tell Him how thankful I am for this precious life that He entrusted to me, and I will ask Him to look over my Blake, my Allie, and my friend who He allowed me to call my husband while I am away from them. I am forever grateful for this time in my life on the good days and on the not so good ones.
Thank you again to those precious people who loved our Ashley enough to come out and work for her today. I love you with a pure and open heart. Each of you mean so very much to my family. I pray God will bless you for the time and effort you put in, and for being willing to become a part of Ashley's story. Good night.
posted by Ashley @ 10:05 PM
4 Comments:
All praise and glory to Christ for a restful day. Happy to hear that today was peaceful. We focus now on her demands for tonight. May the doctors, nurses and you bring her comfort. I pray to Our creator that the infection that is disturbing Ashley's body goes away.
Dear Trish,
Just checking in on you~~~
It is my prayer that since it's been several hours since you last wrote anything it means you and little Ashley are fast asleep and snuggling in God's mighty arms in peaceful rest. Just keep in mind that during those times that God grants you some time of rest there are others lifting you and Ashley up in prayer because you have so openly and graciously shared her story with us and we sense a connection because we have the privilege of praying for you and wtih you.
May the efforts in the campaign today bring forth great results and may many more lives be touched as more and more learn of Ashley's Story. May God bless the outcome of this campaign in a mighty way. Heavenly Father, Right now we pray for restful sleep for baby Ashley and mom.
In His Love, Janiece Baldwin
I am hoping that you all had a good nights rest since no updates have been posted. We wanted to be at Ashley's fundraiser so badly yesterday, but weren't able. Troy and Kaitlynn both have some sinus issues so we took some goodies and dropped them off. We have an unpoken prayer request that involves your family.....please pray for it. I know that your list must be a million miles long these days. There are so many prayers that are being lifted up to the Father, take comfort in that. We love your precious family and continue to check on your progress and send our prayers.....thank you so much for sharing your story with us, it has touched more people than you will ever know.
Trish ~
My name is Amy Borden. My little girl Morgan, was born Feb.20,2005 at 27 1/2 weeks weighing 1lb. 4oz. We are from Hallsville and a friend from Oakland Heights directed us to your family's story. I read back through some of your journal entries and i felt as though i was reading my own. I too kept a journal throughout Morgan's 7mth hospital stay and now i keep a website for friends and family to see our miracle today, as she grows. Morgan has many/ has had many of the procedures and concerns that it seems Ashley has had. I know that now is an important time for you and your family to focus on Ashley and my husband and I will lift her up in prayer daily now that we know about your family. We would love to be a source of encouragement in whatever way possible. My email is amy_nichole03@hotmail.com and our website for Morgan is http://www.myspace.com/88790451 (this website is set to a private mode so that we may monitor visitors ~ you may need a myspace account to access it, let me know if you encounter any trouble) God has been our faithful Rock and I am certain that He is yours as well. Aren't we blessed to lay our children in His care and know that He can carry them. We have been blessed by Ashley's story ~ what purpose her life already has! These little girls already have such an incredible testimony to build on ~ what blessings!
With Joy,
Amy, Shaun and Morgan Borden
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