Small gifts in His hands

Another day is done for us here in Omaha. How my heart smiles when I am told of the kids who hear of Ashley's story and want to help her. The gifts given by these little people make the biggest impact on our hearts. When these little ones search through their possessions whether it be their piggy banks, toy boxes, or movie collections to find their very best in order to give it to Ashley there are no words to express how touched we are. From the best they have to offer they are making sacrifices that when placed in His hands are making the biggest difference. I want their parents to know that I will tell Ashley of their willingness to give to a little girl who they didn't even know. I will tell her what special children they were who searched their hearts to give her all they could. She will grow up knowing how God used them to touch her life during the hardest of times. To each and every one of the little people who pray and love and give to Ashley, we love you so very much and we are so proud of the smile you put on Jesus' face. Ashley loves you all .

Today has been so emotional in the NICU there are some very, very sick babies here. As I look around at the faces of the other mommies it breaks my heart. Even though Ashley is fighting to live there are so many others who are struggling even more. Please remember to pray for these incredible moms that God would grant them, rest, peace, and understanding that He is working a plan. I could not do this if I did not know that He was holding onto Ashley for me. I pray that somehow I will be able to help or comfort these women however God will allow me to.

Ashley is no longer being given any pain medication. She did very well until this evening when her tears became to much for her Aunts to hear. It is heart breaking to listen to her cry out for help. I know that it is necessary for her to learn to be strong without the help of the medications, but it does not make it easy to watch. I just hold her hand and kiss her fingers and toes trying my best to comfort her until she drifts off to sleep. Ash has a very long road ahead of her before we can go home, but I know that if anyone is tough enough to make it it will be Ashley. I love this little girl with my whole heart and I wish I could erase all of her hurts.

Well I am going to go watch Blues Clues with our little "gherkin". She looks so cute holding on to her new pink care bear with her little feet crossed. She is getting sleepy and I am praying for another night of rest. Take care and we will wait to see what tomorrow holds for Ashley. God Bless.