Long Nights

It is 12:35 a.m. and Ash still has not been asleep. She has only slept a total of 30 minutes in the last 30 hours. The nurse just came in to change her dressing on the transplant incision and found a tremendous amount of bleeding. It was all new and fresh. The doctors on call are in the room attempting to stop the bleeding at her bedside by cauterizing some of the vessels that are bleeding. She is so incredibly strong and so tough. I had to leave the room because of the amount of blood I saw. I am feeling very faint, but Ash just lays there and allows them to do things in the wound. She is really cut open from her chest to her pubic bone. How does she have the strength to do this. I am in awe of who God has created. We are both so tired and I pray that she will be able to sleep once they are done.

She is looking a little better as the fluids are re-hydrating her. She has not been crying out because of her little throat being so sore, but she has a constant groaning. I am praying for peace for her tonight. At some point I pray we will both get some sleep.

Ashleys platelets are low so I think they plan on giving her a transfusion tonight to try and help the blood to clot. I am going to go back in the room now. I hope I can be stronger because I know she needs me at times like this. I wish her Daddy was here.