Saying Goodbye
I just said good bye to my sweet Ashley Kate. As I kissed her tiny fingers I prayed that it would not be the last time I would ever hold her hand. This mornings events have been unbelievable. I have no words to describe all that has happened. All I know is that they took my sweet baby again and this time they can not tell me if they will bring her back to me. My heart hurts so deeply and I am empty. If only I had known it was going to come to this I would have never laid her down for her nap yesterday. I would have rocked her forever and forever. I pray I will rock her again. Please don't let it be the last time.
I fell across her bed this morning and cried like never before. I kissed her toes a thousand times and held her hand. I urged her to fight harder and harder. I begged her to bring her blood pressure back up. I know she was trying. Trying so very hard. Each time she would hear my voice it would raise. I sang to her. I prayed for her. I cheered for her to keep going. To do her very best.
They just called and said they have begun. God please guide their hands. Make them be gentle. She is so very tiny. I am broken and empty. All I do is cry and the tears won't stop.
My mind goes back to the day we dedicated her to God. We willingly gave her back to Him. Today I just pray He isn't ready to receive her. I still need her to be with me.
posted by Ashley @ 11:39 AM
49 Comments:
I am praying fervently that you are saying hello to her again shortly. I pray specifically for the doctors' skill, her strength, your comfort, Dave's comfort, and anything else that comes to mind.
I wish I had other words that would help, but I'll just keep on praying.
Oh, my heart leapt into my throat at your words of saying goodbye to her. Then I read your post and my stomach softened to realize that she was taken by people, not the Lord. The automatic fear that rose in my own heart.... I don't even know her..... I CANNOT IMAGINE the feelings you and your family must be enduring. Trish, know that you are in my heart... sweet Ashley Kate is being lifted before the God of Heaven and Earth this afternoon. Praying FERVENTLY for her physical healing and safety.
When I saw the word Goodbye--I swelled up with tears, Ny heart hurts for you as you endure this waiting game.
Lord, please be with those doctors and guide their hands on this precious baby girl. Please do not take her from this family today, Lord leave her on this earth so she can grow and know how much she is loved. Comfort this family and reunite them again with your healing power. In his name, AMEN
we are steadily praying for you little one--keep fighting.
I got instantly nauseated when I read your post today. I can't even begin to imagine how YOU must feel - living it, being her mom and wondering what the next second will bring. I stopped what I was doing and immediately prayed for all of you. I hope you feel a little comfort knowing so many people all over are praying for your baby. May God give you peace right this very second and give those doctors the knowledge that only HE can give. Hold on little Ash...........
praying....and praying....
Praying...
Praying for Ashley. Praying for your broken heart.
"From here I cannot see
why You'd choose this path for me
but I don't have to understand to believe
that You know why
You know why this road
why this way
and this load
You know how far I must go
till I see
till I know
why this road"
Praying for his will. Praying for peace, comfort, hope, strength. Praying for you all, Trish, Ashley and Dave!
That very first sentence brought up a well of emotions and tears..... All I can tell you is that we are praying for your baby girl. I know the waiting game during surgery is horrible. But we all know Ashley is a fighter and the power of prayer is awesome....
Father we pray for the brokeness Trish feels right now, just lift her up to You and hold her close as Ashley endures another surgery. Just guide the doctors hands as they work on Your tiny creation. Be with David, and help him through this as he struggles being so far away from Ashley and Trish. In Your Precious Name I Pray, Amen.
praying....for all of you!
Praying earnestly for you...
I'm praying right now.
We have been praying so much for your Ashley and we won't stop today. We are so touched by your daughter and we know she is a fighter. We pray that she will make it through and that you can hold her again.
Your family is in all my prayers!!! (((hugs))) Chandria
Praying in Guthrie, Oklahoma for you. Praying, praying, praying.
Dawn
Praying for the Lord to comfort and to give you peace that He alone cah give.Cecelia
My heart skipped a beat when I read goodbye. Please know that you, Ashley and your family are lifted up in our prayers. I wish I could be there to sit with you and hold your hand. May you rest in your Saviour's love.
we're praying for your family.
I am praying as hard as I can for Ashley, you and your family. Wishing you the best!!!!!!!
Amanda D.
We are praying for your sweet Ashley and also your family.
You are in my prayers. May His peace be yours, today and always.
Praying right now for Ashley
I almost lost it when I read your first sentence. Please know that there are people everywhere following your journey and praying for your sweet Ashley Kate and for you and your entire family. My heart hurts that you are going thru something like this....something no parent should ever have to endure. There are no words.......
You are in my prayers and I have directed my readers here to also lift you and your family up.
May his peace surround you and hold you during this time.
Heather
Trish and David,
Maegan just called to let me know the latest. She checks Ashley's Journal daily and prays everyday for your family. I wanted to let you know that I am praying continually throughout the next several hours for Ashley. Also for you, for strength and peace, I know it must be very difficult not to have David there with you. Love your friend in Christ, Denna
Praying for sweet Ashley...Sending hugs to you and your family.
Praying from Colorado for your baby and your family, and for you.
Praying, trusting, and hoping that God will keep her safe during the surgery today.
Praying very, very fervently for your sweet baby girl...
From a mama whose heart aches for you... and who shares your baby's name,
Ashleigh
I am praying for you, your family, little Ashley and the doctors.
Praying and crying with you as you pass through these waters. Our father promises to be with you. May you tangibly feel Him as He holds you and your little one in the palm of his hand - so close to His heart. He weeps with you.
No words can help but the miracle of His peace can be right where you are - however insignificant I know it (He) is enough.
Have prayed and will continue to do so. May the peace of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ be with you, Ashley, Dave and kids, the medical team, extended family and friends.
Mandi Adams, TX
I'm praying for you all!
I said a prayer for your sweet baby girl. May the angels watch over her, may God guide the doctor's hand. He is the great Comforter. May you feel His peace in a strong strong way today. Lifting all in prayer.
I am in prayer right now for Ashley. Someone sent me this passage via email today It is from the book of Job where he says he can’t find the Lord no matter which direction he looks, but he then says “but he knows the way that I take; when he has tested me I will come forth as gold.” (Job 23:10)
Maybe right now you are wondering what God is doing, but rest assured HE KNOWS!
I will continue praying...........
Praying and hoping and trusting in God today for all of you. From our family to yours....many, many prayers!
Praying and hoping and trusting in God today for all of you. From our family to yours....many, many prayers!
Praying for you in Arkansas
Praying fervently for Ash, and God's hand of guidance for the surgeon, anesthesiologist, and nurses in her surgery. May you feel the love of God's arms around you this morning.
Lee
Oh my momma's heart hurts for you right now.
Right now, I lift her to the Great Physician and you to our Great Comforter.
Lord, I don't even know this family, but You do, and You have a plan for them. I pray that You would guide the hands of the surgeons, nurses, and anyone else who comes into contact with this sweet girl today. I pray that you would be a healing balm to her today and to her momma.
I am lifting you up in prayer. I pray that God's peace will settle on your shoulders as an embrace from heaven,and comfort you as you await news. He is with you in this, and feels your pain. I pray that He will guide the surgeon's hands and give him wisdom and supernatural knowledge.
I am praying for Ashley and that you'll be able to hold her close again soon.
Trish and Family, I am praying praying praying for you! You are loved and cared for by so many and I join so many friends and strangers in lifting you up with all our might to the Great Physician. With Love
Prayers for your family from Perry County,Ohio.
The verses that instantly came to mind were the following:
But now, this is what the LORD says—
he who created you, O Jacob,
he who formed you, O Israel:
"Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine.
When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.
For I am the LORD, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior
Isaiah 43:1-3a.
My prayer is that you will feel God's presence throughout this day. May you feel it in a mighty way.... As a mom, my heart is breaking. I wish I could say or do something that would help. We will continue praying and trusting God for great miracles.
I am praying for you, Dave and Ashley. I know this is a difficult time, but I know we have a God who knows where you are. As real as the pain you feel right now, He is as real as the mention of His name. May the God of peace and comfort be with you now and always.
I've been following your story for some time. The faith and love that you have for your little girl is so very stong and deeply touching. Please know that I'm praying for you and your family.
Praying in VA...
Praying for you and your sweet little one. My little boy was born at 25 weeks and had bilateral hemorrages. God gifted us with Ty through adoption. My heart is heavy for all that you have gone through and all that you will go through. But take heart...HE has overcome the world.
Doni
Phoenix, AZ
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