To Far Away to Help
It has been determined that it is to risky to try to attempt the procedure described in the last post. It is felt that if they tried "the heart would probably do the same thing, only maybe not having the same result." At that point they decided to leave the fluid around the heart and watch her until morning. The doctors and surgeons have gone home all hoping as we do that they will not be called in the middle of the night.
Trish described for me the events of earlier today. She said when they were going to do the needle aspiration they asked her to step out of the room for about 20 min. She went down the hall and was on the computer. She described feeling something was wrong and so she looked down towards Ashley's room. There was a nurse pushing the CRASH cart to Ashley's door. Trish began to run down the hall and one of the other PICU Moms was following her. As she was asking what was going on nobody would answer her. She began to see doctors and nurses coming off the elevator and running into Ashley's room. She heard a nurse on the phone talking to someone and describing what was going on and then heard her raise her voice and say "she is in cardiac arrest!!" then slam the phone down and go back in this room. I think she lost it at this point. I cannot even imagine the pain she was feeling at that moment. When she called me on the phone she was not even able to talk, she handed the phone off to a PICU mom who was describing to me what was going on. Then a Physician's Assistant got on the phone and began to describe to me the procedure they were going to do (which now they are not going to do unless it is an emergency to do so). At this point I am feeling completely useless to my wife and youngest daughter. I am feeling a lot of guilt for being here and not there with them. I don't know how I am supposed to keep things going in Longview while I am needing to be in Omaha. This is a hard place to be in. Tonight I pray that we would see progress towards getting Ashley home while it seems to be getting farther and farther away. Tonight as I run out of words to my prayers I am thanking Him for giving me the peace of knowing that so many of you are lifting up the Gherkin when I run out of words. And I thank God for so many of you praying for Trish.
I will update as soon as I get more news.
DAVE
posted by Ashley @ 8:40 PM
12 Comments:
Dave, Do not feel guilty about being here, I know that is easier said than done, but you have Allie and Blake to take care of and you are doing a wonderful job. I know it is hard for you to be 700 miles away when the love of your life needs you so much, but know she is in the Father's hands now and he will get her through all of this. We lift you up to him that he may comfort you and give you peace to know you are doing what is right for your family. We all love you and are PRAYING< PRAYING PRAYING that this is just another bump in the road.
Trish...Dave....sweet Adam's family...I know the events of tonight have been extremely stressful....numbing....exhausting. We are praying .....& even when you have no words....Jesus knows your heart. I pray that HE speaks words of Comfort to you....that HE gives you glimpses of HIS plan.....for I sense & can only imagine.....your weariness on this LONG journey of separation from each other. Praying that Ash will be ok through the night...that they won't be called in & that GOd will do something AMAZING. Praying for healing.....Praising GOD for every blessing....Keeping focused on HIM....This isn't TOO big for HIM. (=
Joining with others everywhere who are praying right now. Praying for Ashley, praying for Trish, praying for Dave, praying for Blake, praying for Allie, praying for Glenda and praying for Bobbie during this very difficut situation. Oh, Father, put Your hand of healing and Your hand of comfort and peace on this precious family. Sustain them, Lord, that they may turn to You in all things.
Praying that You give Trish all that she requires to get her through tonite. Give Dave assurance that a good father cannot be at two places at the same time.
Dave, Please do not beat yourself up for not being there with Ash and Trish right now. You are not there physically but, you are there spiritually. Trish, is a very understanding woman of God and she knows that you are doing your best to provide for the rest of the family's needs. I know your heart aches and you want to be there so bad. I know that is a hard shoe to fill and so very frustrating. You want to be there so very bad with Trish and Ash but, Blake and Allie need you also. Just know this is only temporary and God is there holding Trish's hand and he will bring comfort to her. We are praying that Ash will pull through this as she has already proved in the past to be so very strong. God has his hand on her so please rest easy and know he is holding her in his precious hands. Let me know if, I can help you in any way. Love and prayers, Cindy Adams
Our thoughts and prayers continue to be with your family! May God grant some rest for this night and answers in the morning!
"In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit interceded for the saints in accordance with God's will."
Romans 8:26-27
Dave please know that the Spirit is interceding for you as you do not have the words.
I will be praying that Ashley will do great through the night. You are all in my thoughts and prayers.
Jayme from Arkansas
Father, just cradle this family in your arms tonight. We all have come to love this little girl and family so much. Just give them peace and comfort....help David's feelings of helplessness, give him the words to say to Trish. We just pray that you would continue to be with them and watch over them especially tonight. Lord, I don't even know what to say, other than just hold them close to You tonight, and please help them their baby gherkin through this. In Your Precious Name I Pray, Amen.
Son, my heart goes out to you and Trish tonight. My prayers will continue through the night for you all. Our Father holds you all in His hands - praying for peace and comfort for you, Trish, Ash, Blake, Allie and Bobbie and all the rest of the family. His love surrounds each and every one of us and He will not leave us! I love you!
Dave, I know I don't know you but I have been following Ashley's story and praying, praying, praying for your entire family! I am praying right now for our Good Lord to lift you ALL up! I pray that He will keep you all in his arms as He always has, I pray that you all get through this difficult time in your lives and are able to be together again soon. I know this seems very far away right now...but we should never give up hope! Please don't feel guilty for not being able to be there with Trish right now, I know this is easier said than done. You are doing all that you can do....so is Trish. I think that ya'll are a wonderful family and may God Bless you in these very hard times.
Praying harder.
My heart is screaming for you.....I want so very badly to be able to do SOMETHING. I can only imagine how that is magnified for you. Greg and the kids and I have been gathered together in prayer for Ashley and her doctors for the past half hour. Of course, we will continue to pray throughout the night. David, thank you so much for keeping us updated even in these events. I don't want to call you because I know you are inundated with so much going on already and you need to spend all your time in figuring things out, not repeating it all. Just know our prayers are not stopping! I love you.
praying tonight for Ashley.
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