She HATES her Christmas Dress!!!

I am EXHAUSTED! I have just lost round one of wrestling Ash in her Christmas dress. Trust me, there will be a round two. Just not today! She has worn me out. I tried. Honestly I did. I used every trick I know and she came out on top today. It may be March, or April, or possibly May before I get a "good" picture of my baby in her Christmas dress, but I will succeed. I wish you could have seen the match. She just out smarted me. It didn't matter what angle I tried to set up the photo she would intentionally "growl" and turn the opposite way. I mean it. She was determined to ruin this photograph. I have witnessess. The chaplain tried to make her behave. He tried to make her smile. She beat him too. The RT came in and tried to get her to cooperate, but in the end he gave up as well. The dress is just so beautiful that I wanted a "Christmas"( I realize it is over) photo to put in her scrapbook, but she doesn't care. She really and truly hates the dress.

The nurses on the floor today are trying to convince me that she just might be a tomboy in the making. Excuse me? Do they realize who they are talking too? Not my daughters. They will be little girls complete with holiday dresses and BIG hairbows. Why else would God allow me to have them? I will mold this attitude I saw displayed in her today. It may take me a lifetime, but I know that God gave me this stubborn little girl for a reason. She will be a young lady if it kills me! Honestly, she is just the funniest thing you have ever seen. As soon as I gave up (because I was out of breath and sweating from the wrestling match) she was smiley, and happy, and cooing, and ready to be so very sweet. All she needed was for me to take that dress off of her and she was available to me to take as many photos of her as I would like. Did I tell you how much I love this awnry little one. She makes my heart smile. She is now napping because she is tired from displaying all of that bad attitude. It is hard work to be naughty!

Other than misbehaving during our photo shoot, she has had an ok day. She is very nauseated today, and they have decided to place the Ph probe in the morning instead of today. Each time I pick her up or lay her down she begins to gag. It really is positional. As long as she is still she doesn't seem to have any trouble. I just pray that as we take it slow she will adjust and be able to keep her feeds in. She has to eat. There are no other options. TPN will destroy her new liver if she has to continue on it. I am trying not to get worried about that because I know that the Father already knows that she needs to eat to live, to grow, to survive. He has a plan for her. I know that He does.