Tough Morning

This day has not been going the way that I had hoped it would. We started off early this morning by placing the PH probe through Ashley's nose and down into her throat. She Immediately began to throw up and has not stopped all morning. She is miserable and feeling so nauseated that she can not even sit up. She fell asleep from 10:00 until 1:30 and as soon as she woke up it started again. To say that I am struggling and disappointed is to say the least. I don't know what to do. Eating is the most basic and simple task that we all take for granted. It comes so easy to us, but for Ash she can not eat. I am at a loss. What do we do?

I know that the next discussion on the list includes another operation. I am terrified. The thought of opening her up for the 4 time and starting at the beginning makes me physically sick. I want so badly for Ash to eat and grow and advance. Today home seems so very far away for us.

In the midst of all of the disappointment I know that God is never caught off guard. He knew well in advance the struggles that Ash would face, and He is with her through each and every one of them. I am confident that He will work this through, I just don't know when. So today has been tough and it has been trying. I am discouraged, but we are still here. We are still fighting to find answers, solutions, and resolutions. I pray that He is holding the answer to her struggles and that He might share it with us very soon. Thanks for praying for our little one. She sure needs it, and it means so very much to her mommy and daddy to know that you are out there and that you care. May He bless you today. Trish