I don't Understand

I don't understand why some children are born healthy and others are not.

I don't understand why some children with short bowel syndrome have to go to transplant when others do not.

I don't understand why some children with transplants go on to live normal lives when others do not.

I don't understand why some children live their lives in hospitals while others do not.

I don't understand why some children survive when others do not.

I don't understand why some children get cancer when others do not.

I don't understand why some children fight for their lives tonight when others do not.

I don't understand why some children and their mommies have to hurt so bad when others do not.

I don't understand why I can't understand these things and so much more. I don't understand what I am to learn. I don't understand what I am to be doing while we are here. I don't understand what my purpose is at this time. I don't understand, but there is One who does. He knows tomorrow. He knows the answers. He knows the things I sit and wonder about day after day.

I don't question Him, but I do tell Him that I don't understand and I don't think I ever will. I just pray that while I don't understand His reasons that I can still fulfill whatever role He intends for me to. I pray every day that He will use me, use Dave, use Ashley to make a difference for Him. If we must go through this then I pray that it serves His purpose and that it brings glory to Him.