Pathology Results
I typed my last post a 5:30 with no idea of what the future would hold for my sweet Ashley. At 6:05 our surgeon came in with the results.
It is cancer.
I can't really do this right now. I have been broken and I am not sure how I will heal, but I know that I must gain some sort of strength for my daughter so that I might help her fight. We will know more in the morning. Thank you for praying.
Trish
posted by Ashley @ 8:27 PM
78 Comments:
There are no words right now.Just know that the prayers of mant are with your Ashley, and all of your family.Even though I live in Ohio and have never met Ashley, I have come to love her through this journal. Love never ends.
I'm stunned. And I'm praying. And I'm REALLY REALLY HOPING you'll let the body of believers who want to carry this burden for you right now. Your testimony is strong enough to endure some time away from typing, if you need it. PLEASE DO NOT let Satan tempt you to feel you OWE anything that's not entirely honest. And remember God works that in us. It is not always instantaneous. If it does work out that way, Praise God! But if you need the chance to think things through before you know what to pray, know that so many are praying for you in the mean time. I love you. And I really mean it.
Trish,
My heart is hurting for your right now. I will be praying for you guys tonight.
I know you only through this blog--but my heart is hurting right now.
Praying that God will make more miracles in your sweet daughter's life.
2 Corinthians 1:8-11 For we do not want you to be unaware, brethren, of our affliction which came to us in Asia, that we were burdened excessively, beyond our strength, so that we despaired even of life; indeed, we had the sentence of death within ourselves in order that we should not trust in ourselves, but in God who raises the dead; who delivered us from so great a peril of death, and will deliver us, He on whom we have set our hope. And He will yet deliver us, you also joining in helping us through your prayers, that thanks may be given by many persons on our behalf for the favor bestowed upon us through the prayers of many.
Know that I am praying for you and Believing God with all the faith that I can muster up for the healing that we know only our God can bring.
Kristi Cooper
I, too, only know you and your precious ashley thru your journal. I will continue to pray for your family.
As I have followed along with so many others as you have shared Ashley's story and your heart...I don't know that I have ever been so broken for you as I am right now! I cannont imagine the rush of emotions that are going on in your family tonight....but know that many are in prayer with you tonight and asking our Heavenly Father to carry you in the palm of His hand in the days ahead. Much love and prayers from a sister in Christ!
Reeling with the news but rejoicing still that the Lord is capable of sustaining you through it all. Abundant prayers for your family as you continue to walk this path.
There must be many people, like me, who have never met you or Ashley but who lift her name daily unto the throne.
"Lord, we don't know how to pray for Trish and Ashley right now. We don't understand. We can't begin to grasp the plan you have for their lives.
But, you know what they need. Lord, please supply it abundantly. In Jesus' precious name. Amen"
Trish: You are stronger than you'll ever know. I am amazed at your strength and your loyalty to an ever-loving God. I continue to pray for Ashley, as well as you, David, Blake and Alli.....I know it's so very hard right now but God is with you, right beside you, every step of the way. We continue to pray in Longview....
Praying and loving you all!
I too only know you and your family through this journal. I wish there was something more that I could do to help to carry your burden. Like your last post said, God does have a plan. He will reveal it to you in His time and not a moment before. Know that you have many people in Rome, Georgia praying for Ashley and her precious family.
Because He lives, we CAN face tomorrow!
I'm stunned. I dont know what else to say except that I am fervently praying! I only know you through this blog, but I want you to know that I love you.
I am so sorry Trish. I wish I could take this pain away from you. I don't know what to say. Praying hard...lean on Our Maker...Only He can help...Love and prayers! Tam
Prayers for you and your family from Kelli in Longview.
i am not tired or weary of hearing ashley's beautiful story...it touches my heart every time i visit your site!! even knowing this news....and how it breaks your heart..and the hearts of all who know of ashley....i am compelled to pray for you even more....and i can only assume the same is true for soo many others out there. i hope you feel the strength from all our prayers. i hope you feel uplifted....and sustained by His enduring ...and never tiring...strength...hope ...and unconditional love.
tirelessly praying...
Trish, I cannot even begin to imagine what you are feeling. My heart is broken for you. God will see you through this, as He has the days before today. I will continue praying for that miracle. Love and blessings to you and your family.
Praying for sweet Ashley Kate and your family. You are stronger than I might ever be. Ashley is strong, too. She hasn't come this far to loose now.
Father, we know that You have plans for this family, even though we are unaware of what they are. We pray that You would continue to use them to touch the lives of all who read about Ashley. Please continue to hold them close to You. Help Ashley as she begins to wean off the drugs...help her with the withdrawels....give her tiny body comfort and ease her pain. Be with David as I am sure he is struggling that he was not there when the news came. Give Trish the strength to continue carrying on with Ashley's story...You are using her to create such a beautiful, inspiring story of faith, hope, and love. Help Trish get some much needed rest, and help her to continue finding rest in You. Father we love this little girl and her family with all our hearts...we ache with them. We know You have done and will continue to do mighty things with her life. Wrap them in your loving arms and hold them extra close as they go through this valley. Thank You Father for who You are, and all You do for us. We pray that our lives are used for Your honor and glory. In Your precious name I pray, Amen.
Oh Trish. I am so sorry. That is not the result I was praying for.
If you need a second opinion from someone here in town, let me know and I can call upon some friends who are doctors for recommendations.
I wish I didn't have two down with the flu right now or I would come there and hold you hand and cry with you.
Know that God has big plans for Ashley and she has a wonderful mother who will help her every step along the way. This Giant called cancer can be defeated.
Jill from Omaha
Praying for peace in your heart and soul tonight - the peace and calm only God can give. I am praying for you all. God is in control. He is in charge of her life.
God's hand is not short. Even at this time when it appears the devil's winning, God will work ALL things for good. Lean on Him! His strength can and will carry you through. Please continue to keep us posted. My children and I check on Ashley everyday and look forward to your updates. Our prayers continue toward the heavens!
I am praying for Ashley and all of your family as well. I can't imagine what you are feeling. My heart is breaking for you, but just as someone else said, this did not take God by surprise. The many that are supporting you in prayer will be strong for you.
My heart is hurting so terribly for you right now, Trish. Words won't even come... just tears as I think of you and sweet Ashley. We are praying... praying so very fervently.
God has done amazing things thus far in Ashley's life. How great His power to do more...
Trish,
I am so sorry! My heart hurts for all of you tonight. Praying for you all.
Love and Hugs,
Lori
Trish, I'm so very sorry. I'm lifting Ashley (and your family) up in my prayers. Please know we are with you in spirit.
I am very sorry, Trish. I will be praying! He is holding you tightly.
My tears won't offer you any comfort, but please know that I am praying for you through my tears. Our God will give you amazing strength and peace. He already has. I love you and sweet Ashley, though I will never meet you face to face.
I am so sorry.
Praying for Ashley and your family! My heart is broken for you guys right now but I know that GOD CAN! Chandria
Praying.. praying like I never have before. Hold her extra close for all of us that wish we could hold the two of you and pray for you.
Comfort them Jesus, like only You can.
Trish,
I don't even have words to say other than I will continue to pray. Thanks so much for sharing your Ashley's story with us. You are such an encourgment to me. Remember God is Good, All the time.
Praying for Ashley and you and your family. My heart aches for you. God bless.
My heart is breaking for you. I am so, so very sorry. I don't have words.
Father God, we come humbly but boldly before Your throne. Father touch this baby girl. We beg for your mercy. Envelop Trish in your love, comfort her aching soul. Father we don't understand. I can't even fathom your will here, but I know that isn't my place. We know that even when all the evidence points the opposite direction, Father we know that we know that you are good and you are love. Bring your comfort and your healing touch.
I wish I were there with you so you weren't alone Trish. I don't know you, but we share a Father and I know His heart aches when ours break. I wish I had something to offer. I wish I could somehow ease the blow. I wish that I could do anything that would make this even the tiniest bit more bearable, but I have nothing. I will continue lifting you before His throne knowing that He will Never leave you alone nor will He forsake you.
words evade me. I just second what a previous poster said...this news doesn't surprise Him. Even as we are literally stunned...He is still in control. He is still our protector, our shield, our everything.
My prayers are tenfold for you tonight. That the One who gave each of us life...and extends us daily grace and mercy...will take over for you in these next few days. Let us carry your burden...and cuddle that precious baby.
Kristi in Texas
I am so sorry for your news. Ashley is a strong little girl, and you are a mother who has shown an amazing amount of strength. I am praying for both of you during this difficult time.
Trish, I am searching my mind for the right words, but honestly there really isn't anything right to say. I am saddened that this is the road that Ashley and her family have to walk. She has faced so many obstacles in her life...one more just seems so much.
You have offered up Ashley's story as a living sacrifice to God. Her story has changed lives. Her story has challenged me to look beyond my own trials to what God is doing in our lives in the bigger picture of it all.
You and Ashley are a part of my life even though I have never met you. One of the first things I do in the morning is check in on you two, and before I go to bed I check again. So tonight as I go to sleep, I will grieve with you. I am frightened and speechless with you. I AM TRUSTING WITH YOU! You are not alone. The Almighty God, the King of Kings, the Great I am is with you each step of the way. He is...yes, He is!
Love and hugs to you both! Goodnight!
Trish & Dave ~
Great crowds came to him, bringing the lame, the blind, the crippled, the mute and many others, and laid them at his feet; and he healed them. Matthew 15:30
We will bring her before the Lord, her cancer and withdrawls, her new organs, her little lungs... and we will boldly ask that He heal her and we will do so with great faith in Him.
I love that even though we've never met, God has given so many of us this great love for Ashley and your family.
love,
the Borden family
((HUGS)) Sending you lots of hugs and prayers during this really hard time, I wish we could all take some of the stress and pain away from you (if there is anything we can do please let us know).
Know that you are all loved very much and being prayed for by many.
I too only know you through this blog. I have so many times wanted to be there and hug you - a stranger, but a sister in Christ. Today I just gasped and cried. I am so sorry for this news.
If anyone can fight, it's Ashley. She has made it through more than most of us will ever go through. She is strong!
Hold on to Jesus, He's holding on to you!
Praying for precious Ashley and for you all...
OK I just spent about 3 hours reading all of your entries... ok I read Sept Jan and Feb. Sorry but it is almost 3 am...lol.
I am amazed at yoiur strength. YOu obviouslylove Ashley and the Lord loves you both.
You and your family will definately be in my prayers.
Nichole
God knows your pain. He will be with you and your family every step of the way in the days and weeks and months and years ahead. I am praying for you and your family. Everything is a grace.
Oh, no, not sweet Ashley! I will continue to lift your sweet Gherkin up in prayer daily for healing and you up for endurance and hope. You are loved from afar by people you've never met. Hang in there with Jesus. Laurie Sigel
I wish I could give you a hug, but I'll just have to settle for asking God to do it for me. He's better at them, anyway. =) You are all in my prayers.
Oh Trish and Dave, my heart aches right along with you. I dont know what to say. Your Ashley is in my prayers today, along with the rest of your family. Please know that you all are thought of, and even though I dont know you all, I pray for you everyday.
...For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and and not to harm you, plans to give you HOPE and a future....
We love you so very much, Trish, Dave, Blake, Allie, precious Ashley. Lifting you up always before the throne of our good and gracious God...may He give you HOPE this day.
I am back to the internet and completely floored by what I am reading here. I cannot believe these words. I am praying.
praying...hoping...trusting in God...
Lifting you up, please know that there are hundreds upon hundreds of people praying for you and your family.
Be honest in your grief, trust me, it is what will give you the strength to gain momentum and face what the Lord has placed before you.
Sweet Ashley, you are covered in prayer.
Praying for you and your family during....God is our hope during times like this...He will be the guide for you as you walk this journey with your sweet baby. She is alive now - there is much hope!
"Let nothing disturb you;
Nothing frighten you;
All things are passing.
God never changes.
Patience obtains all things.
Nothing is wanting to him
who posseses God. God alone suffices."
I have sought prayer on my blog site.... please let me know if you want me to take the post down. I love y'all and am so sorry for these results. Lifting you up higher and higher to the LORD.
My heart aches for you. I am bombarding heaven for Ashley
Trish,
God has given you all you need to go through this. Much of this is in you already...but when you feel empty and cannot...he has brought along an army of people to pray, pray, pray... We are strongest on our knees and I know many are there lifting up prayers for you and Ashley.
Our father cries with you...holds you so close to His heart. But he knows how it will all turn out - His plans for you are GOOD. His plans for Ashley are GOOD. God is not fearful because he sees the future and knows how everything will work together - we just have to trust.
Praying for peace and a miracle everytime you come to mind.
Praying fervently for you this morning, Trish. Know that you are held in the everlasting arms. God keep!
there are no words, there is only shock and pain. the prayers are flying from our home - the audible gasp brought my kids running and now they know the amazing story of ashley that I have selfishly kept to myself until now. may you feel the strength and love of all of those who know your story and who now wait for understanding.
On my knees praying....
Praying for you Adams family. Just know that if he brings you to it he'll bring you through it. God is with you now and always. Ashley is a fighter and so is her Mommy!
Trish
As I am taken back with the test results I hurt for you. I pray God will be with Ash as they continue to work with her. I ask He comforts her and your pain at the same time. I still believe in miracles and I'm still expecting a miracle from God. The one who begins our journey still amazes me with His power. I love you both so much and I'll talk with you soon.
Toni
Pryaing...still. Will never give up. Even when I don't understand and it doesn't make sense, I will always choose to trust in Him...He is GOD!
Trusting Him to meet your (and that means you and your entire family) every need.
those three little words have crippled me. A mother never wants to hear. Keep fighting. I am praying for you daily for the Lord to give you strength.
I just read your post from last night and thought "No, oh no, no!" I will be thinking and praying for you all as baby Ashley fights the good fight.I read your journal at least twice a day and have come to love you all through your posts. May God bless your sweet family in this time of need. ----Carla
My heart hurts for you and your family. Will continue praying - May you feel wrapped in His love - knowing that His arms are everlasting and that they will never let you (all of you) go.
I am in total shock and dont have any words except I love you both and I am Praying for God's healing Power to take over! God will open a new door, he just has to.
Trish,
I am just in total shock!! PLEASE know that I am praying for you and Ashley. Now that they know what it is I pray that HE leads the Dr.'s on the path to help heal that sweet Gherkin. I am praying for you as well. We love you both soo much!!
I pray that God will give you the strength to get through this. I pray for His comfort for you and Ashley. I hate to think that she is in pain and that makes me sad. I can't even imagine how hard it is as a mother to sit with her and not be able to make her pain go away. Just know there are lots of people praying for you and Ashley and your family. Remonica
I too can't find the right words to say. Tears a flowing. Praying for comfort for Ash and for your entire family. My family and I NEVER grow weary of praying for you and your family.
Praying in Longview.....
Lord,
Please come down today and be ever so present in Ashley's family, give them a hug like no one else but you can, they need it Lord. We ask that you comfort Ashley right now and help her to not be in so much pain. I don't even know how to pray Jesus, but you know what this family needs right now so I just ask. In Jesus Name, Amen
Praying for strength for you right now. Please know we all love you and Ashley and we know God is in control.........always.
I am so sorry to hear this news. I've mentioned before that I have followed your story for some time. How very lucky Ashley is to have such wonderful parents. Your faith and love for your little girl has deeply touched my heart. Please know that you and your family are constantly in my prayers.
Shelly
Fayetteville, AR
oh no! I am so so sorry! Hopefully the doctors with the help of God can help heal your little girl! My heart hurts for you and your family. Be strong!
You are not alone. You have some amazing prayer warriors at the throne of God for your precious Ashley and you. We are here praying.
Lord we ask You to work a mighty miracle as only You can. We will give You all the glory and all the praise.
David, Trish, Blake, Allie, and Ashley,
I have been following Ashley's story and praying fervently for your family daily for several months now. God sat me straight up in bed last night to pray for sweet Ashley, and when I woke up, I checked the journal and was speechless. As I prayed, I was reminded that cancer is big, but He is bigger. I found a poem about what cancer cannot do:
Cancer cannot...
cripple Love
shatter Hope
corrode Faith
destroy Peace
kill Friendship
suppress Memories
silence Courage
invade the Soul
steal Eternal Life
conquer the Spirit.
I'm praying His peace over your hearts.
I can't even explain my feelings right now. I am so sorry that you are having to go through this. I will keep praying for you, Ashley and your family. If there is ever anything you need please let me know.
Bless you,
Amanda
We are in shock! I know this is the one thing you prayed would not happen. Please know that God will give you the courage needed to face this.
"He giveth power to the faint; and to them that have no might he increaseth strength." Isaiah 40:29
Continuing to pray for you guys
Lee Babbitt
I am in tears just reading this. I know you don't know me but somehow I found your blog a few weeks ago and was completely entranced. I am in awe of your strength and love for this little girl and for God.
Please know that even strangers pray and think about this little girl constantly. My heart hurts thinking about this child in pain. As a mother I cannot stand to think of babies hurting.
There are so many of us captivated by her spirit and your persistence. We are praying for you all.
Oh, no.
I'm speechless, Trish. But my heart is throwing pleas to the Lord constantly for her, you, Dave, the kids.
I'm so sorry.
Dave, Trish & Family,
I will uphold you in prayer when you come to mind. I do not wish to offer you empty words or pretend I understand all you feel. I want you to know I am here, I am reading, and I will pray. I can't imagine all you feel right now. I wish I could reach out and give you both a hug.
I have no words-only prayers
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