Can it Be?

Can it be? I guess we will find out tomorrow. Just the mere thought of actually being able to touch my Blake and Allison, to hug them, to hold them until my arms grow tired, to pray with them before they drift off to sleep, to place my secret kisses upon their foreheads as they dream, and to linger in their doorways until I become tired of watching them is almost too much for my heart to hold and to anticipate. I am trying to stay grounded in the knowledge of how quickly I know that things can change in my Ashley's life, but it is difficult not to become excited at the possibility of going home.

I can hear the excitement in the children's voices. I can hear how badly they want for this to happen. I pray they are not disappointed, and I pray that if this His will for our Ashley that it will be allowed to happen. It is so very hard to pray for His will to be done when you want what you want to happen SO badly, but if I have learned anything through this journey with my baby it is that His will is worth having and waiting for.

I dare not prepare or begin to pack. I know better than that. It will be one of those last minute throw it all in the back of the car kind of moves. I am not sure what day we will begin our 14 hour journey toward that little yellow house, but whatever the day it can't come soon enough for us.

I have not had the opportunity to speak with Dave since our initial conversation this morning, but I did speak to Blake and he said that they are destroying his bathroom. Hammers are flying and things are being carried outdoors. He told me the bathtub is already out and the tiles are being removed from the shower. He thinks the floor is next and then on to our bathroom. I asked him if he thought tearing out both bathrooms at the same time was a good idea and he seems a little concerned about not having a readily available toilet. Good thing our office is only a couple miles from our front door.

After watching how much better Ashley felt during her daddy's visit I can't imagine how much better she will do once she is around Blake and Allie too. I believe what my friend Laura told me last week is true. After being home with her little Caroline for the last four weeks she said that a huge part of their healing and recovery was normalcy. Being in their own homes, surrounded by their families. I can't wait to see Ash in her own environment!

Thank you for praying today. I appreciate your time here and your time in prayer. Take Care. Trish