Our great Day

How could you have a bad day when you get to hold this? It just isn't possible! Dave and I have enjoyed spending the last few days parenting this little pickle in our apartment together and I have enjoyed watching the two of them play. One thing I know for sure is that Ashley loves her daddy! No one can make her smile the way that he can. I can see him tear up every time he thinks about having to leave her tomorrow. I have eavesdropped on a conversation or two when he was asking her just how he was supposed to go home without her. How I wish we could go with him. I am afraid our little apartment will seem far to quiet and way to empty without his playfulness running around it. I can't wait for him to come back to visit, and I really can't wait to get Ashley to a safe enough place in her chemo to where Blake and Allie can come too. We are really missing those two.

Outside of a little nausea and having to go pick up a $200 prescription for Ash we have had a really great day. She looks really good today and seems to be coping pretty well with last nights treatment. Her white count should begin to drop by Thursday and then she will start feeling pretty weak. We have had a couple of conversations with our hematology and oncology departments about all that took place yesterday. We also had part of conversation with our transplant coordinator and shared with her that we really didn't want to finish chemo in the treatment center because we did not feel like things had gone very smoothly there. She said to me, "Just where do you think you are going to have it done then? We are not anywhere ready to let you go home." With that statement my heart began to sink for a minute or two and then I decided I was just going to have to pray about all of this. More than anything I just want Ash to live. I need to know that she is safe and that she is getting the best possible care. I just didn't get that feeling yesterday so something is going to have to change, but I am not sure what to do about it. I have until Monday morning to figure out a solution. Please join us in prayer as we seek for an answer.

Dave and I are fixing to enjoy a nice evening of PF Chang's take out and a movie right here on our couch in the apartment along with our little one. I can't think of a better way to end the day then sitting next to my best friend while holding our baby until she falls asleep. What a great day we have had.

On a couple of personal notes I would like to say thank you to the anonymous sender of the beautiful book the North Star. It was a wonderful gift and we read it and LOVED it. I also want to say thank you to little Abraham for the package you sent to baby Ashley. She loves the bouncy balls! Thanks to Ash's aunt Kathy and aunt Toni for her personalized hair bows. They look great, and thanks to our friend Robin for all the goodies for our apartment. I so appreciate it. Last but not least, thank you to my nephew Jerid for the cases of diet coke. You know how much I love that.

I am going to sign off for tonight and go enjoy our anniversary chinese take out and my last few hours with the amazing guy I get to call my husband. He leaves at 4:00 in the morning to fly home in time to work at the office. Thanks guys for checking on our little one. It means so very much to me to know how much you care. Love you, Trish