Ashley's Story

She will leave fingerprints all over your heart


It was...

...My heart.

...Her story.

...His plan.

Thank you to those who came to encourage, lift up, and carry a part of the burden. I love you all deeply.

I was always honest. On the good days and the bad. Never intending to cause such conflict and strife , or to add pain to our hearts. We love the only way we know how. We parent the only way we know how. We live the only way we know how. Ashley's story will be silent for a while. I have no idea how long, but for a while. I will continue to write it, but I won't be publishing it for now.

Your presence was NEVER taken for granted. I will always be grateful for your prayers for our family. Please don't take it personal, but some days are tough enough without all the extra "opinions" that are given. Your kind words will not be forgotten.

At the end of the day I will answer to the Father, to my husband, and to my children for the way I have chosen to live. To be honest, I don't care to please the whole world.

If I might ask one prayer request, Please pray for Ashley's vomiting. It only gets worse and is causing us much concern. Today we were told it could continue for months. How frightening that was to hear. Thank you again for your faithful prayers.

You are loved. Trish


At 11:13 PM , Anonymous Toni in the midst said...

Right back at you, Trish. If I can be praying specifically in some way, feel free to email me.

At 11:23 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

My heart is saddened for all you've experienced these past few days. Still praying! Denise

At 11:27 PM , Blogger The Rutland Family said...

You deserve a break. I will miss terribly the daily updates on your precious Ashley. Please know that I along with my family will continue to pray for and lift you all up to God every day. Although I've never met you or your sweet family, you are never far from my mind.
Because He lives, we CAN face tomorrow.
God Bless!

At 11:31 PM , Blogger Cheryl Jones said...


I totally hear you on others opinions instead of just love and encouragement. I feel so bad that is has come to this, but I understand your heart so much. It is hard enough than to hear others telling you what you should think and feel about whatever thoughts you are feeling. We were suppose to all just be standing in the gap for you and covering you with showers of love instead of telling YOU on YOUR blog the right way or the way the Lord thinks you should be. It hurt to read the past few days comments knowing that you didn't need to hear any sermons or preaching.
I will miss reading your posts as you have touched my life and I am forever changed. Your family edifies everything that honors the Lord and I can only imagine all of the amazing things that are ahead for all of you.
You really should consider becoming a Christian writer or publish a book as you write in a way that makes you feel like you are right there. It is a gift the Lord has sure given you because He knew the lives that would be changed by this journal and your writings.
It is a sad night knowing that tomorrow there will not be a post or a post to wake up to or new pictures to see. I will miss that so much, but I just knew in my heart today that this would be your decision. You always do what is best for the sake of your loved ones. Bless you my sweet sister in the Lord.
I will never stop praying daily for your family. Never.

At 11:50 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...


I understand why this needs to be done. It's obvious at this point that "silence" may be key to some things. Know you are in my prayers everyday. I will miss you, but you will never be forgotten. I am sad that you have had such a hard few days. You are loved. I have a care package I will be sending in the next week or so. I hope you enjoy it!

I love you and praying!


At 11:53 PM , Blogger Gretchen said...

You won't be forgotten, Trish.
(((hugs))) gretchen

At 11:55 PM , Anonymous Dee Dee in NC said...

Praying for you, Trish. Please find a way, occasionally, to let us know how Ashley is. We love her and your family so much.
But you do what you need to do. You're right. It is the Lord to whom you answer, not the rest of us.

At 12:17 AM , Blogger Candy said...

Praying for you and your family.Know that we love you and will continue to pray for you. I wish you peace and health and happiness. Will miss the updates, but know that you need a break. Don't let anyone get you down because you are a wonderful woman, wife and mother. You truly inspire me daily. God bless you and yours always.

At 12:26 AM , Blogger Rachael said...

i am praying for you and your amazing and wonderful family. you truley are the most amazing people i have ever had the chance to read about. thank you so much for all that u have shared with us and i'll be prayin for you hard during this time. God bless you guys. i love you even though i have never met you but I just wanted you to know that u and ur family and sweet little ashley give me courage.

prayin hard
rachael from pittsburgh, PA

At 12:27 AM , Blogger Mandy said...

I will miss seeing your post and reading about Ashley. Have you thought about blogging but not having comments? You'll be in my thoughts and prayers

At 12:44 AM , Blogger Kelli said...

Know we will still pray. Funny. I took mine private today as well.

Trish- you guys do what's in your heart for Ashley. It's all God asks. He put her in your care. Not anyone else's.

He simply put us here, on your path, to standi n the gap in prayer and fellowship. No more, no less.

At 5:43 AM , Anonymous andrea b. said...

I'll be praying for you guys!


At 5:59 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

Tirsh, Praying that you and Ashley had a wonderful time outside. Take all the time you need, sometimes the heart gets so full you need time to empty in out a little.We will miss you but understand. We also know that every thing that happens whether others agree or not goes through Christ first, therfore happens because this is how your life is planned in his making.I'm sorry so much hurt has happened to you and your family in the past days, but know the good out weighs the negative, we all will continue to walk with you and continue praying for better days ahead. Praying that Ashley's vomiting stops, that your sweet heart can find some peace. God Bless..Karen.

At 6:18 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

Woke up this morning at 5 am...felt compelled to pray.

Just checked the blog. Will continue to pray in the silence and as the Spirit leads.

As I have said before, my life has been blessed by your family. I have grown as a Christian reading your story. Thank you for your honesty. You are a very eloquent writer.

Lifting you up by name today!

Kristi in Texas

At 6:35 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am so sorry to see this blog end. I have faithfully prayed, hoped and loved Ashley and your entire family.

Please do continue to post, if at all possible! I would love to hear how Ashley is doing. Yes, please just turn the comments off!

At 6:39 AM , Blogger Shannon said...

I am so sad that you won't be able to update us but want you to know that that fact will not stop the many, many prayers going up daily for you and your sweet family.

Blessings to you,

At 6:41 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

WOW! Okay well I am taken by surprise. I think this has always been a fear for me. I have been reading Ashley's Journal since day one. While I really do understand, I am also saddened deeply by this. I will continue to pray for Ashley to get better. I will continue to pray for your peace of mind and for your family to reunite some day very soon! I have never judged you Trish, you have always been an inspiration to me. On days that I didn't know how I would make it through my day, you helped me more than you will ever know to do that!!
I'm so very very sorry you are hurting. This breaks my heart into pieces. I wish there was something I could do to change things.
Please find it in your heart to let us/me know how Ashley is doing once in a while. I will always be wondering. I will always be praying. I will always be hurting for you.
I'm pretty sure this isn't a good time to say this...I say it with all due respect. I feel that there are a lot of people that have very good intentions here. That have TRULY cared and loved your family!! People that take time out of their day to pray for you and your family...people that take time out of their day to come to this blog to be updated on the progress of Ashley, to find out how you are feeling. I may be sounding selfish here...I pray that I'm not...but maybe you could just post a small note saying how things are going without getting into every detail. I mean only what you are comfortable with of course. I am aware of what what is going on...well I'm aware of what you have told us about. I am praying so hard for this situation to be resolved. I know that you have enough to deal with. This trip has been especially difficult for you Trish from the start. All I'm asking is that you please find it in your heart to let us know how Ashley is doing at least. I am very very very saddened by all of this. I have been sad for you all along...I feel like I'm losing a family. Sorry to post my true feelings here when I know you are having such a hard time...but I feel they need to be said. I am in no way trying to make your life more difficult. I could not live with myself if I did something like that. I'm so sorry for everything Trish. May you and your family be blessed by the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ.

At 6:42 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

I hope you'll update us on her condition and with specific prayer requests. You don't have to allow comments.

At 6:43 AM , Anonymous Staci said...


I have been watching Ashley's journal for awhile now, but I had never posted because you don't know me, and I didn't want the possibility of adding to the very reason you decided to be silent for awhile.

I want you to know that you have been an inspiration to me in the way you have handled things with Ash. As parents we often forget that we are just that - the parents that God chose to care for our children. It is easy to believe that the professionals obviously know what is best and to turn over our God given responsibilities to them. And although God has given the doctors and your team knowledge and wisdom, in the end, you are the one who will be ultimately responsible for Ash. God has entrusted her to your care, and he will guide you as well. You have taken that role very seriously. Please know that your dedication to Ashley has been an inspiration to many of us who may have never written.

I will miss checking in on Ashley - on the good days and the bad. I hope that you know that you will always have anonymous/other friends who have grown to love and care for you and for Ash.

I will be praying. :)

At 6:47 AM , Anonymous Becky said...

Oh, Trish. I don't comment all the time, but you are the first blog I check every. single. day. I will continue to lift you and your family up in prayer wether or not you update us daily. I'm sorry for what you've had to endure in sharing her story. But, please know that your little gerkhin has touched so many lives. And that your family dynamic has touched so many lives. May you feel the peace that only God can give.
With much love,

At 6:49 AM , Anonymous Prayer Mom said...

We understand. The prayers will continue. Expect a miracle.

At 6:52 AM , Anonymous Courtney said...

I'm so sorry that you come away from this blog hurt when you should be encouraged. Please know that those of us who come to encourage and pray for you all will continue to lift you up in the silence. We are part of your family and you will always be in our hearts.

I personally thank you for sharing your heart. It only helps me understand your struggles and gave me specific guidance in how to pray. You are Ashley's mom, chosen by God, and you are fulfilling that role perfectly! Just continue to press on and know you are being prayed for!

Continuing to pray for the vomiting to stop!

In His love,

At 7:02 AM , Blogger ManyBlessings said...

Please consider shutting commenting off completely or at the very least, moderating it. You can do it under "settings" and then "comments".

And whether or not you post, that baby girl and your entire family are going to be prayed over. Our prayers are not, and should not be, dependent on this blog. :)

Sending you love from afar!

At 7:04 AM , Blogger Sun said...

Oh how I will miss you and this journal - but completely understand too! I will be mailing you something this week - and will continue to lift you and your family up! Sunshine

At 7:06 AM , Anonymous Leslie said...

I am truly saddened today that the blog will be stopping and I am choking up just writing this. I read from day one last week. For you, please reconsider stopping the blog and turn off comments. A year ago in November they told you that you couldn't blog using their computer. It was a source of peace for you then and I think now. You can turn off the comments and we would still know what specifically to pray for.

If you do still stop writing, please drop a note occasionally letting us know how you, the gherkin and family are doing. I will keep coming to this page to check.

I feel that you and your family are a part of mine now and I will miss you.

God Bless you!

At 7:06 AM , Anonymous Theresa said...

Oh Trish .... I sure will miss you! And you don't even know me!! LOL!! Maybe you could disable comments?? Your blog is the first one I check in the morning, and the last one at night. I've never commented, but I've always prayed ... from day one. And I will continue to pray. I hope you are not silenced for long. Never forget God is holding you and your family firmly in His grip.

Love in Christ,

At 7:10 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

I too can't wait each morning to see how your night went. I was hoping to hear of some miracle in the night that lets you "escape" to home. I will continue to pray and trust God to keep you in His loving arms. You are so blessed to have such a precious daughter and she is so blessed to have such a loving family. I look foraward to meeting you all some day in heaven. still praying in Central IL

At 7:10 AM , Blogger Sarah's In the Midst of It said...

Trish, I'll continue to pray for you every day, and I hope that this break helps to build you up, heal some hurts, and replenish your spirit. You are a champion of the best sort, and your love for the Lord and your family shine brightly.

Thank you for sharing so much of your heart, and I pray that when we hear from you again, it will be with wonderful news!! God bless you, sweet sister.

At 7:13 AM , Blogger jtcosby said...

I pray you will be able to keep us posted on Ashley at least sporatically. You have become part of our family. We love you and will continue to pray for you and your family. You are soo right...we are not who you answer to, only Him. In Him,

At 7:15 AM , Blogger Elizabeth S said...

Trish, I totally understand, after the last couple of days, why you are taking a break. I don't blame you at all. I am actually bothered by all the people who are asking you to do ANYTHING more than what you have done. That's not our job. Our job as fellow believers is just to stand in the gap for you and Ashley and your family. Would we love updates? Sure. But to ask you to keep updating, etc, when you have made the decision to take a break is not respecting you and the position you are in. God always knows specifically what needs to be done for Ashley, so all we have to do is pray. I am so sorry for all the hurt and I will be praying.

At 7:21 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

Please do update us occasionally on how she is doing! Now I will be so worried over her since I will not know. I have checked for over a year, daily. Even on vacations and through my own illnesses I checked on her. She has become part of my life, my heart, my prayers.

Part of me sounds so selfish to say all of this, but please do let us know how she is doing. I have never believed in miracles until this blog.

Please do turn the comment section off and post often! Your words made my day. I will be praying and hoping Ashley is getting better daily.

Love, Jen

At 7:41 AM , Blogger Carey said...

I will always be praying for your sweet Ashley, and your family. May God always be with you, and you find comfort in His Word and Presence. you all are so loved, and we will miss you.

At 7:43 AM , Blogger Morgy's Mama said...

We'll continue to pray for Ash, the family and her team. I have some connections who may be able to keep me posted in Longview, so I'll go that route. Know you are loved and thought of each day, whether you write publicly or not. Love and hugs from Longview.

At 7:56 AM , Blogger Lisa said...

I will miss hearing about Ashley's journey and progress, I will continue to pray daily as I have. May God bless you and your family in the days ahead. Maybe you could come back, but if not just remember her story and life have touched many.

At 7:58 AM , Blogger Dereck and Cathy said...


I, too, am a person who has never commented on your blog. I came across Ashleys Journal through Ivey's Story.

When I first came to this blog... I so admired you for your faith and your strength. I went all the back to day one and read until I was totally up to date.

Ashley is a lucky little girl to have you as her Mom, Dave as her Dad, and Blake and Allie as her siblings. She was put in the best hands. God has a plan always...

I check on Ash every single morning. Selfishly, I will miss the updates, but you have to do what is necessary for your well being.

As others have said, if you can or feel you should, update on occasion, I will continue to check you you all. But know that you will always be in my heart and more importantly in my prayers.

Cathy from Georgia

At 8:05 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am so sad to hear that you are taking a break--but I certainly understand. Please at least update us on Ashley's condition. I think of you daily and will continue to pray for Ashley and your entire family.
God Bless,
Nancy in Georgia

At 8:23 AM , Blogger Aunt Boo said...


Like everyone else who commented here, I will miss you and your updates on your sweet blessing. I hope all goes well with your family and especially Ashley.

We will miss you.


At 8:26 AM , Blogger Dennis, Rose and our Clan said...

I am so saddened to read that I will not read on Miss Ash each day. I am in the middle of making something for her though so I will mail it off as soon as I finish it.

Know we will still be praying here for little Ash and you and your family everyday.

Stay strong Trish and I hope and pray this break heals your hurts.

At 8:30 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

Take that break for as long as you need! People just don't get "it." Its amazing how insensitive and cruel they can be on a baby's blog of all things. No manners!!! You'll be missed and I'll wonder about her and be in prayer as before. But you know what? Its not about me!! If you never post again, that's okay! Ashley is in our Father's hand and that's all we need to know. Colleen

At 8:31 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

I wish you and your family the best. I will continue to pray for you and Ashley. Her life and struggles have been none of our business, but I am thankful that you shared them anyway because it has been so encouraging to see you rely on God for so much. You don't need this stress and worry. You owe nothing to us - just take care of that little girl and yourself and your family! Thank you for all you have done!!

At 8:33 AM , Blogger Michelle said...

My heart aches for you, but you do whatever you need to do for you and your family and we will continue to pray without ceasing for all! God Bless! Michelle in Tulsa

At 8:38 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

We will keep you and your family in our prayers. I do not comment very often, but want you to know that I too check the blog daily, sometimes more than once a day to check on your sweet Ashley and your family! If at all possilbe, please keep us updated on her health!! Take care and we will miss you dearly!

At 8:41 AM , Anonymous Misty said...

Take as long as you need...focus on your little pickle...we'll be here when you get back and will pray pray pray while you are gone;)

At 8:47 AM , Blogger JMom said...

Praying for you.

At 8:54 AM , Anonymous Stephanie - KCMO said...

I'll continue to pray that God bless you and your family. God, please stop baby Ashley from vomiting. Amen. Love, Stephanie

At 8:57 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

Like others, I'm so sad that a few insensitive (and judgemental)people have caused this. I understand your need for a break.
I so admire you and will miss the frequent updates and pictures of your beautiful Ashley. Please keep us posted as you feel comfortable.
Take care-Megan

At 9:13 AM , Blogger Keri Ann said...

While I'll miss hearing about what's going on with little Ashley -- and your whole family -- I completely understand your need to stop publishing for a while. You have been very, very brave, in my opinion, to put your whole self out there in such a vulnerable state. You've always been so gracious and loving with those who share their "opinions" rather than just words of encouragement, and I would do well myself to use you as an example in that regard. But I don't blame you for needing to protect yourself from so many such opinions.

I will forever be grateful for what you have shared here, and how it has changed my life. Know that you will all continue in my prayers, whether you're posting or not.

Much, much love,
Keri Ann

At 9:16 AM , Anonymous Jule White said...

Trish ~

I understand - completely. Know that you are loved and will be prayed for fervently. Thank you for sharing your heart and for sharing Ashley's journey. My prayers will not cease (and will be praying for the vomitting).

God Bless.

Love, Jule White

At 9:18 AM , Blogger Laurie said...

Dear Trish,
I have had a feeling in my heart these past few days that this day was coming and I know you do not take anything for granted. Nope, not you.
I will continue praying daily for your family and for Ashley's healing and I want to say that the picture here is so beautiful and says so much to my heart. I hope the next post and picture is like this one, announcing that you are all together again at home. And with Gods help in His time, you will be. I will take my "comments" directly to the Father for your victory in this time of change for you. I truly feel He is drawing you closer than ever before for this time and I pray that the silence is peaceful and healing to your souls.
God continue blessing you sweetie, and you are not alone out here. We stand at the door of heaven, knocking on your behalf.

Love to you and your family, grandmas and grandpas too.
Laurie in Ca.

At 9:18 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thank you for sharing Ashley and your heart, know that I will continue to pray for you all.

At 9:22 AM , Blogger missy said...

I am so sad to see this happen but I can only imagine the pain you've felt that has brought you to this point.

You are living in an area of God's grace I've never before witnessed, and I think that is why I am so encouraged by you and this blog. You and Ashley are living evidence of God's existence as far as I'm concerned! Good days or bad, His light is shone through your testimony and while I know that doesn't heal your hurts, I hope it is a comfort.

Thank you for allowing us all into your life for the past couple of years. I feel privileged to have witnessed so many miracles and such incredible strength. Even the days you've thought you were weak, you've been so strong!

You are in NO way obligated to continue to share your life with us, but I do hope you come back. I feel selfishly invested in this fight for Ashley and I so want to watch God continue His work in her life. But whether you decide to post everyday or never post again, I will be praying.

God bless you all. Missy Olivo

At 9:22 AM , Blogger Kelly said...

I will miss you and will be praying. I hope to run into you in Longview soon. I'd love to meet you.

At 9:29 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

We will continue to pray.
So sorry that people have hurt you -especially during this time.

Hope you can rest, and rejuvenate.

At 9:31 AM , Blogger GrumpyBear in Blue said...

I have been following this journal of your precious little girl for a while now, but I never commented because I had nothing to say that you haven't already heard.
It saddens me to read that you won't be blogging for awhile because people are being mean. Nobody has the right to question anything yo uare doing for your little girl.
You are doing a great job.
I hope that things change and that people will not leave rude/mean comments anymore. Your family does not deserve that!
You are all in my thoughts.

At 9:33 AM , Blogger Julie said...

Wishing you peace and we will continue praying for you and your family. God Bless. You are a terrific mother.

At 9:35 AM , Blogger Valarie said...

"Finally, brothers (and sisters), whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable - if anything is excellent or praiseworthy - think about such things." Phil 4:8

Trish, like others, I anticipated this break. You deserve it girlfriend! This is YOUR life, YOUR story, YOUR baby so you do whatever is true, noble, right, pure and lovely with it. Know that you are prayed for all over this country! The Father knows sweet sister!

Update us as He leads and until then we will pray and wait...
Love in Jesus

At 9:43 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

I check on Ash every single morning. Selfishly, I will miss the updates, but you have to do what is necessary for your family. I will continue to pray for your family and for total healing.

At 9:51 AM , Blogger Tara said...

I check in daily on Ashley and will miss the updates, but I understand and you need to focus on your family. Please know that I will continue to pray for Ashley and the whole family. You have more strength and courage than I can imagine. My heart breaks for you, as you try to explain how difficult it is to be away from two of your children, while you take care of Ashley and her needs. I praise God that Ashley has such a loving and caring mother and a great family. I pray that one day soon your whole family will be together in the place called home.

At 9:56 AM , Anonymous laura said...

Wow! So many comments! Look at how much love you have coming your way! I wonder if that kind of support is what kept Jesus going when he was repeatedly beaten down by non-belivers?

I hope that some day the negative comments will not cause such hurt in your heart and that you will continue to share Asley's Story with us. Her story has changed for the better the way I look at my faith and my challenges with my own children (two with special needs).

I was encouraged by how many people responded to the people who posted inappropriate comments.

I appreciate your need to take a break for a while. I hope you are still able to find an outlet for your feelings. If writing helps you, perhaps you can continue Ashleys journal on paper on in a MSWord/etc file? You can also write posts on blogger and chose "save as draft" instead of publish.

May you find the peace and love that you show others. ALl the best

At 10:01 AM , Anonymous Davian's Mom said...

I just read your message on the break you will be taking. You do whatever your heart tells you to do. I checked on Ashley and you every day when I got to work. I have her website on my favorites. I wish the best for you and your family. I will keep you in my prayers. You have done an amazing job as a mother. Ashley is and will always be a fighter and a lover of life. I look forward to getting an update someday when you are ready. Take care and stay strong. Enjoy the privilege of having your baby in your life. It is a beautiful gift.

At 10:02 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...


I am hurting so much because I think you are hurt at this moment. I am so sad to see you go, but know your pain and MOST OF ALL know that you must be focused on getting the little princess well and back again to her castle in Texas! Get well soon!

At 10:10 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

wowl your sweet family will continue in my prayers day and night and i hope that you can come back to share her stories with us as soon as your heart tells you. I check this blog at least 5 times a day to check in on sweet ashley. may god bless you and your beautiful family. i pray for strength for you and dave to make the right decisions and to bring this tiny miracle home for christmas. with the faith in God that you have, it's just so inspiring to me to know someone going thru so much can still come on here and pray for other people and put Ashley's life totally in His control. That is just so awesome. I know it will get better b/c of the faith you all have. Thank you for being that inspiration in my life. I'm in my 20's and my dad died when i was 16, from a disease that me, or my siblings could get and it's hard to live each day knowing that this could hit us as well when we hit our 30's. But reading about your inspiration thru all of this has really encouraged me to live each day to the fullest and take nothing for granted, and thank God for the blessings in my life. Thank you Trish. my email is if you'd like to respond. God bless, Corey

At 10:29 AM , Anonymous Kimn said...

We will miss checking in on Miss Ashley but will continue to pray..I hope you remember that the support always seemed to overwhelm any negative comments...there is a lot of love for that little girl here as well

At 10:33 AM , Anonymous Erin said...

I have been reading Ashley's story for over a year now, but have never commented. I just wanted to let you know what an inspiration you have been to me during a difficult time in my life. Thank you!

At 10:37 AM , Blogger Amy T said...

God bless you and I pray that Ashley continues to get better every day! Do as you feel God is telling you. We will keep praying regardless. I pray for healing for Ashley and for your family's hurts.

At 10:49 AM , Blogger Davis family said...


You are a wonderful Mom and know what is best for your family. You are an inspiration to me as a mom. We love you. You and your beautiful family are in our thoughts and prayers always.

andi davis

At 11:02 AM , Blogger Daffodil Hill said...

I am so sorry for all that you are going through. Why do people think they have the right to tell you what to do when they haven't walked in your shoes?! You are obviously the most loving, devoted mother on this planet, and I for one am proud of you .

Ashley's journal is going to be sorely missed. It is the first blog I check every morning. I have grown to love your family through this journal. You will always have my support, my respect, and my prayers. {{hugs}}

At 11:08 AM , Anonymous Denise said...

I understand your need to keep things more private also. I will truly miss knowing how Ashley and your family are doing! Like everyone else here, you are the first blog I check each day so I know how everyone is doing and what to pray for. Please consider short little updates here and there just so we know how things are going:) Take care and we will keep praying!

At 11:16 AM , Blogger Lisa@UnexpectedJourney said...

Thank you for sharing Ashley's story with all of us and sharing from your own heart, too. You are truly an inspiration and such a wonderful mother. I will continue to pray for Ashley and for your whole family. May the Lord continue to strengthen you and may you feel His tender love.


At 11:39 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

Oh Trish - honey, I am just so very sorry. How my heart breaks for you! I check on Ashley CONSTANTLY! I too have her story saved as one of my "favorites."

I have learned so very much from you! I am a better person because of YOU!! I am a better mommy to my son because of YOU! I am a better believer because of YOU!! What an inspiration you are. The most wonderful thing about you is that you take NO credit...instead you give all credit to our Lord. As I have said before, when you get to Heaven, our Lord will greet you with a crown, adorned with jewels and He will say "well done, my child!"

It has been a PRIVILEGE to pray for you and your family. You have to be one of the most loved people in this world!

You will ALWAYS be bathed in prayer, honey, no matter if you choose to post or not. You mean too much to everyone for us to only pray IF you post...our love for you is unconditional!

Watch for your care package...I think my son, is even more excited about Ashley getting it than I am about you getting it!! :o)

I thought about this Psalm and I wanted to share it with you:

"O God my rock," I cry, "why have you forsaken me? Why must I wander in darkness, oppressed by my enemies?" Their taunts pierce me like a fatal wound...Ps 42:10
"Why am I discouraged? Why so sad? I will put my hope in God! I will praise Him again - my Savior and my God! Ps 42:11"

I realize that only a portion of that may apply but I think it is great because He is YOUR Savior and YOUR God...He is with you and He is for matter what the enemy tries to do to you....

God Bless -
Amy and Kyle

At 11:49 AM , Blogger Alicia said...

What an honor it has been to read your heart each day. I never for one day took for granted what it must take you to pour your heart out in such a public forum and risk judgment. You are a hero mom, Trish. As we welcome our first baby in April, I hope to be half as good a mom as you are. You have encouraged me, edified me, and strengthened my faith for the past year, and I am entirely grateful. I will continue to pray for sweet Ashley and the entire family. May your burdens be lifted, and may you be abundantly blessed for the blessing you have been to us.

At 11:55 AM , Blogger Lisa said...

I am so sad to hear you won't be updating us on Ashley's progress, but I completely understand. I can't imagine how hard this must be for you, and now to not be able to share your deepest burdens. My heart breaks that you have been hurt by comments and opinions all the while doing what you feel is best for your daughter. I'd like to know where Ashley would be right now if all those other people would be her parents. Certainly not the adored, loved, and cherished little girl she is. I will continue to pray for you and your family as you struggle to bring your little one back to health.

Lots of love,
Lisa R. from Bethlehem, PA

At 12:04 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

Your need for privacy is understood and respected. We will still pray for Ashley and you and the rest of the family every day.
Susan O

At 12:18 PM , Anonymous April in Colorado said...

Ashley (and of course your entire family)continue to be a tremendous part of my day in prayer and thought. The Lord has put a special burden on my heart for the plight of Ashley.

Anything you ask to be prayed for will be added to my list, but please know that the Father hears from me about your precious little one long before I read your daily post!

Prayers and hugs...

At 12:27 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

I will continue to pray for Precious Ashley and your family with all of my heart!!:o)


At 12:45 PM , Blogger Connie said...

Trish, I do understand! We will keep praying. I have blog too, and sometimes people will not only post comments but email me privately with advice--and that kind can be even more "out there." It's your daughter, your blog. We will miss the updates, but we won't stop praying, and we'll be here if and when you decided to post again. By the way, I loved photos and videos you posted. Her personality is adorable!

At 1:16 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

What an honor it has been to follow the very private and personal journey of Ashley over the last year. May God continue to be with her and the Adams family as they face much more than most of us could ever imagine. For those of us in Longview...maybe the sign at the clinic could have prayer needs on it...just to keep us informed. I like many others will miss the posts because I feel so attached to someone that I have never met...nor might ever get the opportunity to meet. His Love and Grace is sufficient and I truly believe He is working in the hearts and lives of many thru this journey you and your family are traveling on. May God Bless You and give you some much needed rest. We love Ashley and pray for her healing!

At 1:28 PM , Blogger CrownLaidDown said...

Continuing to pray faithfully, daily and at 9:00pm mst.
With love and prayers to you and for you, Friends,

At 1:45 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

i feel like i have lost a best friend. i am very sorry to see the blog go. i will miss it for sure. i will miss being part of her story. heal well little one...trish, be at peace and know God is with you...

At 1:47 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

It still overwhelms me how attached I have become to your family. I have never met you, don't know anyone who knows you, nor do I ever expect to. But over the last few months I have prayed for you and cried for you just as if you were a close friend.

With that said, I understand your need to take a break from this blog. Your job is to be a mother and a wife. You need to do what is best for you and your family. And you take all the time you need. None of us know exactly what you're going through.

I leave you with this...Since I have began following Ashley's story I have never left this blog without being encouraged. There are many times when you are struggling far more than I can imagine, yet your testimony touched my heart. You are shining God's light so brightly.

Your sweet baby girl will continue to be in my prayers. I didn't happen upon this blog. God directed me here to be a prayer warrior for Ashley, for you, and for your family.

"The LORD bless you and keep you; The LORD make his face shine upon you and be gracious to you; The LORD turn his face toward you
and give you peace." Numbers 6:24-26

-Cari in Arkansas

At 1:49 PM , Anonymous Linda said...

Dear Trish,

Oh how I fear the prayer coverage you'll be forfeiting by no longer blogging. Yes, we'll continue to pray for a time, but often, out of sight truly is out of mind. We'll never forget you or Ashley, but without daily updates and specific prayer request it will be easy to forget to pray. If that happens, Satan wins. Yes there are unkind people out there, but that's nothing compared to the many prayer warriors who've been lifting your entire family several times a day for months and months now.

Will miss the updates and we'll wish you well.

Bless You,

At 1:55 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

I was going to post something, but all I can say is to repeat that Linda just wrote. I hope you can give us little prayer request updates, because we have all been faithfully checking so we can pray for your darling baby. May God Bless your family!!!

At 2:22 PM , Blogger Krista said...


You know Ashley has been part of our family at home as well as at my office. You have to do what is RIGHT by your family and you have always made great decisions on behalf of little Ashley, and I know God gave her to your family for that reason! WE love all of you and hope to see some updates on her condition. She has been part of our Church Family in our Sunday School class and they are always asking me to update for them. I agree with others, if it is therapeutic for you to write, then write and disable the comments section! Have a wonderful rest and Ashley will be in our Prayers as always.

At 3:14 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

By all means do what you need to do. We will certainly continue to pray for Ashley and your family. You have caused no turmoil, just many people expressing many points of wiew can be overwhelming I'm sure. you are an amazing mom. God bless!

At 3:16 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

I agree with Linda!! I also do understand! I also feel very saddened because i feel like I have lost someone very dear to me. I looked forward to checking the blog every day...several times a day ...How i longed to hear the words...we are going home...but I read and i prayed and I read and I prayed...and I am still praying. I am now praying that this will all be resolved very soon. I am praying that the hurt feelings are forgiven for Ashley's well being if nothing else. I am quite sure that Ashley is feeling the blunt of your hurt feelings Trish. We all know forgiveness is the key. The key to our own peace of mind, the key to love. God forgives us for our sins....why can't we forgive each other so readily? I struggle with this daily myself. I am praying today for forgiveness and Ashley's recovery. Trish, I pray that you will find it in your heart to post and let us know how Ashley has been since a lot of us have dedicated a lot of our time to being here praying for her and for you and for your family. I wish you all the best.

At 3:26 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

When you go back a couple of posts, it reads that Trish wasn't feeling well. That coupled with the pressures of a sick baby, missing family, environmental pressures, etc.....she needs our love and prayers.

While I check this blog several times a day usually, my prayers will continue with or without updates. With or without comments disabled. I know that our human nature wants updates...but please, blog family, let's be respectful of her wishes.

Personally, we know from reading her heart for over a year that she seeks His guidance in her decisions. Let us lift her and the entire family up in prayer. It is painfully obvious that this family is under attack...and under immense pressure. Let's continue our servant roles as armor bearers...daily postings aren't necessary for our prayers. Only His leadings.

Kristi in Texas

At 3:40 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

Everyone-people, you can still pray for Ashley without specifics.

Satan will not win because of no posts. Please, will you all give Trish & family the respect they deserve.

It is no ones right to know anything, it was a priviledge.

Again, we can all be in prayer regardless of knowing specifics.


At 3:47 PM , Anonymous julie said...

I'm sorry this blog has become a source of pain for you, when you are already dealing with so much in your life. Just know that I'm praying for you and Ashley. May God Himself give you the comfort you need.

In Christ,

At 3:49 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hey Trish,

You might never even get to mine -- there are so many well-wishers! Remember, there is always the possibility that it is the lipids that are making her nauseated. It really is true, whether on feeds or not, the lipids are just horrendous especially to children. Our Nick wretched for the longest time and we just believed what the docs told us, that it was his "bowel that did not work properly." When we got him off TPN, he completely stopped vomiting. Selfishly, I will miss pulling for Ashley. Best wishes though,

At 3:54 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

I will continue to pray for little Ashley. You have been on my heart for over a year. As a mom to both biological and adopted children your strength and faith are an inspiration to me. I hope you are together as a family again very soon and Ashley continues her healing process. God Bless You.

At 3:58 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hey Trish,

To all of us (I just got through reading some of my fellow commenters) Trish may feel a little "exposed" right now as someone from the hospital used this blog to rationalize the hospital's position on certain elements of Ashley's care. They have not only broken the heart of Trish by saying "they will not be going home soon." They further -- and insulted is just too kind a word -- they actually QUESTIONED the care she provided. And the example was holding -- yes, actually holding oxygen to her face FOR HOURS because Trish knew that Ashley would have been driven crazy by a mask. Trish, I don't mean to put words in your mouth, but I see how you see it that way. I will be watching for an update, but you don't owe me a thing. You'll always have my respect, and Ashley will always have my very best wishes.

At 4:05 PM , Anonymous Kathleen in TX said...

I completely understand. I will be praying for Ashley and your family.
May the Lord bless you and keep you,
May the Lord shine His face on you,
and bring you peace.

At 4:13 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

We'll be continuing to pray and won't stop checking the site (just in case there's an update or specific prayer request). May God continue to bless you and your wonderful family! TM in WV

At 4:17 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

So many great comments here already. Little Ashley, you have indeed left fingerprints all over my heart. As the old Irish saying goes....I am beside you when I think of you...

Know that I am praying for your family always...til we meet again...

At 5:25 PM , Blogger Robyn said...

Much as I enjoy your updates I totally understand you taking this step. Good for you for doing what is necessary for your little family. I'll continue praying and if you do have a specific prayer request feel free to email me at
Take care and may God continue to bless you.

At 5:39 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

I've been a very loyal reader and always have to "check in" with Ashley and your family, although I have never commented, this last post was enough to bring me out of hiding! I can understand where you are coming from, and I am so sad there are people out there who would make this outlet for you a negative thing, but I hope and pray that we can get some updates on you and your little Angel. She is so very precious! ...praying for you all in Michigan. -Amy

At 7:36 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

You & your family will always be in our hearts & in our prayers!!!
Hope to see the little lady soon!!!
Stay strong God is always with you!
All our love!

At 11:04 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am saddened that you will be going silent but I completely understand. It seems that when we are our lowest, someone (who hasn't walked a mile in our moccassins) choses to kick us right where it hurts.

You ARE doing the right thing. Keep at it and don't quit.

At 1:38 AM , Anonymous Janiece Baldwin said...

Dearest Trish,
I have just been re-reading over all the comments here and I can feel the disappointment in most all of them and that disappointment has been because of thoughtless people who do not
put themselves in anyone else's
place, they just blab, most with the misconception they know it all and have all the answers.

You have shared your heart and laid everything out before us as we we all came along on this journey. You just gave us the map and the majority of us came along filled with loving, caring hearts, as we traveled this unknown course. It caused people from all over the U.S. and from many other countries to come together for a common cause; to lift little baby Ashley up in prayer. In doing this we have come together in Christ, and have joined our hearts with the hearts of your family. We have grown to love you, to pray for you, to check on you daily (and some of us more). You have been such an inspiration to many mothers as they have read your hearfelt words and kept coming back day after day to learn just how to pray. Many of them have confessed they have grown much closer to their own children since reading your postings. You have been used of our Loving Lord to draw many closer to Him and even caused some to seek Him. You will probably never know how many lives have been touched by Ashley's Story. For some you are saved as favorites but you are set up on my desktop- so I can get to you with just one click. I will miss you and your words here but you will still be close in prayer. Thank you, for being a blessing and may God bless you, Dave, Blake and Allie richly beyond measure and heal your broken heart.

Fortunatly for me, Nan is a dear friend of mine and a member of my SS class so I will still know the specifics to pray for. By the way, I did see Dave, Blake and Allie at our church's Fall Festival last week.

Sorry this is so long but I just want to leave you with this little poem~~~

I Wish You

When you are lonely,
I wish you Love.
When you're sad,
I wish you Joy.

When you are discouraged,
I wish you Hope.
When your spirit is low,
I wish you Beauty.

When you are troubled,
I wish you Peace.
When you feel weak,
I wish you Strength.

Love and Prayers~~~~~Janiece

At 10:36 AM , Blogger Ellie said...

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At 10:38 AM , Blogger Ellie said...

You may need to be silent on the internet right now - and I totally understand and respect that.

I do want you to know, though, that I will not be silent before the Throne for your sweet Ashley.

At 6:51 AM , Blogger Jessica said...

Just as all of these wonderful people have vowed, I will continue to pray for sweet Ashley, you Trish, your family, and for God to give the medical staff and care takers the wisdom and compassion that is needed in this hard time. But please know!!! When God is hard at work and his children are relying on Him for strength and guidance, SATAN MOVES IN FOR THE ATTACK! That is what is going on here. Satan knows where to hit you where it hurts. You pour your heart and soul and what little strength you have left into this journal, and so Satan just wants to stomp out your fire. God's word tells us in Ephesians 6:10-12 who and what we are against and verses 13-18 tell us how to survive against Satan's power. I know this verse helps me to put things in the right perspective. It also helps me to forgive people. I look forward to hearing updates on Ashley when you can, and please let us know when to pray harder and when to give God praise. May God continue to bless you. Jessica, South Carolina

At 12:59 PM , Blogger cindy/barron said...

Hi Trish, have not been on in couple of days computer problems.Trish you do inspire so many people with Ashleys journal, but i understand you need a break and glad dave has to desided to write some., However we will miss you and till you return to it.I wish there was a way to take all the negative and horsh things or comments people have away from your family. I will be making Ashley something and sending it to her if i can get your address there i misplaced it . Trish you two try and get some rest and know that you are loved and appreciated.


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