One smile is all I need..
After such and exhausting day full of struggle my sweet Ashley just gave me the one thing I needed to keep on going. All it takes is to see a smile on her face and all of the trouble and worry seems to disappear. It has to be the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. I wish I had a way to share it with each one of you who have been hanging on waiting for that smile just as I have. Nothing else seems to matter when you look into her face and see her grin. It is all going to be o.k. She will be strong enough to make it through tomorrow.
Tonight it has been 4 weeks since Ashley received her gift of life. Tonight it has been 4 weeks that I have been able to hold my sweet baby and wait for a smile to come across her sweet face. Tonight it has been 4 weeks since my faith was renewed by the gift my daughter received. Tonight it has been 4 weeks since I began looking into her eyes to see not one gift from the Father but now two. Tonight it has been 4 weeks that I have not only held Ashley close to my heart but also the tiny life who gave her so much. Tonight it has been 4 weeks since my heart fell in love with a family out there who looked passed their own despair to reach out to ease mine. Tonight it has been 4 weeks since I have learned the true meaning of sacrifice. Tonight it has been 4 weeks since I have been so humbled by the act of kindness given to my Ashley by a stranger who she may never meet. Tonight it has been 4 weeks since I began praying for our daughter's donor family. I hope they can feel His strength and His presence in the midst of their grief. As I prepare to search for the words to write to our donor family I pray He will guide me.
We are looking forward to a night to rest after such a long day. We have one of our very favorite nurses with us tonight and that tells me it is going to be a good night. She is a gift from the Father to us and I am so thankful we have her. I am praying for Ashley to get some rest tonight. She is so very sleepy. Tomorrow will be a long day for her as she faces yet another surgery. If she comes to mind tomorrow we would cherish each moment you could spend in prayer for her. Your prayers are so valued by all of us and I know she is stronger because of each one who prays for her. We love you all for loving us and for loving Ashley. Good night.