Somedays He sends them at just the right moments. Sometimes they show up unexpectedly. Most days they blow me away and my heart can't hold the gratitude that wells up inside of me. He did it again. This morning around 2:30 He handed me a wonderful gift. You have to look closely at the picture above, but I assure you once you land on it you won't be able to keep from smiling back.
I think its BEAUTIFUL! I hadn't seen her smile for so, so long and oh my heart longed to see it again. If she can manage a smile in her circumstance then I can too. Its going to be a good day. What an amazing gift!
She and I smiled and played for over 3 hours this morning. She had just been given a little boost of ativan because her withdrawal symptoms were keeping her awake and in trouble. It did the trick. Her jitters and picking stopped long enough to give me some of the most precious moments to hold in my heart. We sang, played peek a boo and patty cake, and then I laid next to her on her bed and allowed her to touch my face, my eyes, my hair, my whatever she wanted to. It felt so good to be that close to her. I even had the privelage of seeing her "spiders" come out over the top of the breathing tube. They were a little shakey and uncoordinated, but they were definitely there and I couldn't help but cry as I watched her convince me to sing it again, and again, and again.
We were awake for the rest of the night. She just can't sleep. Finally around 6:30 this morning her eyes closed and they still haven't opened. We have moved her, taken x-rays, massaged her hands and feet. Nothing is working. Her heart rate is the lowest it has been on 2 weeks. This baby is snoozing. She is absolutely exhausted. Her mom is too. I think I'm going to sleep for a while this afternoon.
Nothing can top the gifts given to us by the Father. He knows exactly what we need and how to bless us. My heart was truly overwhelmed. I love this sweet girl so very much and what an encouragement it was for my heart to receive this gift. I hope to see it again soon, but even if I don't I now know that she still has it in there. Thank you, thank you, thank you Lord for lifting my spirits in the early morning hours.