After 6 sticks anesthesia finally accomplished placing one IV in Ashley's tiny hands. They were requesting two IVs, but her mommy has had it. So if you consider 1 of the 2 successful then we have accomplished something. We are now praying that it will not blow in the next 36 hours. If it does they will have to physically take me out before I allow them to go after her again. I am afraid that after holding my tongue and my frustrations in for over 3 months I have finally become successful at earning the red X on our door. After today it may be difficult to find someone willing to take care of my Ashley. I really tried to be respectful, and I did not say anything ugly. I just REFUSED to allow them to attempt a line in her head or her tummy. I refused to allow them to continue poking and poking in unsuccessful attempts. The nurses are amazing around here and if they can't get it then I know that no one will be able too. I pray they will forgive my behavior today and that they will be able to understand what it is like to watch your child lay there and scream as they try to poke needles into her tiny, tiny veins. Until you have been in that position I am not sure you can understand how protective you automatically feel towards your baby. Today has been ugly and I do not wish to repeat it. Why does it have to hurt so bad?
If they do lose this IV then I will request that they take her into surgery early. Dave and I are having a small disagreement about that. I hope that it does not come down to this. He is much tougher than I am, and he tells me that if we lose this one he thinks they should be allowed to try and place another one. I say NO. Enough is enough. I do not want Ash to have to go through anymore than she already has. Please pray that this site will hold. I can't imagine putting her through this again. We are now waiting for the liver team to come and pull out her central line. They are wanting to have a 24 hour period without a central line in place in order to kill the staff that is in Ashley's blood stream. Please God, let this IV site hold until Monday morning.
In typical Ashley style we are not ending 2006 in a good way. I am praying that as we go out with a bang that we will usher in the new year with lots and lots of good news and progress. I am excited to see what God will do in our lives in 2007. Thank you for praying for us today. It means more to us than you will ever know. Trish