Finding Small Blessings

I am looking for blessings today. No matter if they are large or small. I just want to wrap myself up in them and be thankful. Ash has had not one, but TWO wet diapers today. They weren't heavy, but they were WET. Every little drop counts as we wait for her kidneys to kick back in. My hope is to be able to re-hydrate her before anyone feels the need to mention the word dialysis. They just checked her electrolyte panel and the BUN and creatnine are making small moves in the right directions. More blessings.

She is finally resting and I am counting that as a blessing. Her little body needs to sleep so that it can become strong again. Her wimpering in her sleep has stopped and I am finding the silence in our room to be a blessing. I think she is becoming a little more comfortable as we slowly introduce more fluids into her system.

She is now receiving her monthly cytogam infusion. Today I am counting her central line in my list of blessings. She will require this monthly infusion for a full year after transplant and once her line is pulled she will have to have an IV placed each month. Today I am thankful she did not have have an IV.

One thing I have learned through my Ashley's story is that there will always be blessings around. I just have to be willing to look for them and acknowledge them. My Ashley is here with me and that is a blessing. She does not have an infection anywhere and that is a blessing. Her heart rate, respirations, and oxygen requirements are coming down. All of these things are blessings. There is no ventilator in our room. Big Blessing! I can hold her hand, memorize the details of her face, and kiss her tiny toes as long as I like today and I am feeling blessed. God is really good to me.