Are we there yet?

How I wish we were! I have been packing and loading our cars (mine and my mom's) for the last four hours. How did I get all of this stuff here? I know I only came to Omaha with a couple of bags for myself and a couple for Ash but somehow over the last 6 months it multiplied again and again and again and again. I am exhausted, but I promise I am not complaining. I am just confused as to how this actually happened. I will take my sore back to bed tonight with a happy heart and smiley face. Is this for real or am I only dreaming it? Please don't wake me up if I am.

With every fuss, complaint, diaper, or stool we have been jumping just praying that nothing was wrong. My heart beats fast every time I hear my little one make a move. Please, please, please God let this be for real. I just want to raise this princess in Texas. Tomorrow we will attempt to make the 10 hour trip to Dallas (thanks to one of my favorite nurses and her hubby bringing me a set of directions tonight:). I am not sure how far we will actually get. It all depends on my sweet Ashley Kate and her attitude. If she only knew the people who were waiting to see her on the other end of this journey. She has a daddy, a Blake, and an Allison who are anxiously waiting her arrival.

How sweet it is to know that we actually have been told to leave. There is still such a long way to go for my little one, but God has brought her so very far. The journey to Omaha was long and rough. The journey in Omaha was long and rough. The journey from here on out is a mystery, but even if turns out to be long and rough I know that we have traveled it the very best way we knew how. I know that it is the hand of God on this sweet baby that has allowed her to keep on traveling when so many things have tried to stop her. When He allows her to come out on the other side of this cancer just think of the chapter it will make in her story. The thought of listening to this precious creation tell it herself one day gives me chills. I have said it a thousand times before but I mean every word of it, I am blessed to be her mommy. I am blessed to be allowed to hold her hand on this journey. I am blessed to wake up each day and hold on to her as tightly as I can. I am blessed!

Tonight the guys have been working away in the kids bathroom. I honestly don't know how Dave is doing all that he is. God must be giving him an extra measure of grace and strength during this time. How exciting it is to hear how the Father is providing help to him. I am so grateful!

There are so many things on my heart tonight. I could type and type and type about the blessing of friendships that I have received here in Omaha. I know without a doubt that God brought us here to this place to come to know these people. To all of you who have reached outside of you comfort zones and extended a helping hand, a kind word, a meal, a snack, a hug, a prayer, a crib, anything at all I want you to know that God has used you in such a mighty way. Your willingness to come to know our baby pickle and her mommy has meant so very much to me. I love you guys and I thank God for you each and every time you come to mind.

I know that our time here in Omaha is not over forever. We will have a lifetime of care here for our little Ashley. She still has obstacles to overcome, but just knowing that I have a network of friends to come back to makes the future seem so much more "doable" to me.

I am going to close for now because I still have some more packing to do, but just know that once I make it somewhere tomorrow evening I will let you know that we are safe and sound. I appreciate your excitement and your faithfulness to us. Goodnight from Omaha. Trish