Like I've never felt.
She survived. Again. She is sleeping so peacefully in that crib tucked away in the corner of her big sister's room. I over heard Allison hushing Ash back to sleep tonight. " I love you baby girl. Your home now and your the best baby in the world." Peace. In my heart. Like I've never felt before.
Home. The most wonderful place in the world. I love our home. Its where my family is. My son plays ball here. My daughter paints and creates here. My baby is happy here. My husband, my best friend, walks through the door each night here. I belong here. Peace. All over me. Like I've never known before.
Christmas. Its here. In every corner of our home. In every space in my heart. The music quietly plays. The candle light flickers and puts shadows on the wall. The lights on the tree shine through the night. He came. He was born. He lived. He died. For me. Because He loves me. Jesus loves me. Peace. Like I've never experienced.
Prayer. I prayed. I cried. I pleaded. I begged. I surrendered knowing nothing I could say or do would change His plan. Grace. He showed it to me again. Mercy. He gives so freely. She is alive. She is home. She is happy. I prayed. Dave prayed. Blake and his friends prayed. Allie prayed each morning. Each of you prayed and prayed and prayed. He answered and His answer brought peace to our family's heart. Like we had hoped. Peace. We have it again.
We are home and it feels so good. The children are all sleeping in their beds and Dave and I sit together on the couch. I dreamed of having this again. Night after night not knowing if we would ever be here together again. We are a family of five and we are home.
Peace. I hope you know the peace I am describing. I pray your life, your heart, your family, and your home is full of His peace this holiday season. I love you guys. Goodnight. Trish