Resting...

Ashley is now back on the vent and she is once again sedated in a paralytic state. It is very scary to see her go from fighting and screaming to being so very still. I know that she needed to rest tonight. I am so very thankful for the help she received. It is amazing to me how He continues to teach me and mold me through Ashley's life. Tonight the very same nurse who I believe was responsible for the pain that Ash endured because of the mistake with her central line last week was the one who He used to save her life tonight. I stood in the room so humbled as I realized His presence there teaching me to forgive. This same nurse bagged my daughter's every breath for over 2 hours tonight. I have so very much to learn. I thanked her again and again for the wisdom and patience she used as she came in to take over and care for Ashley. The nurse who was assigned to Ash had never had her before and did not know what to do. The nurse from last week, who I now know was placed to care for Ash by God Himself, came in and literally saved her life tonight. She was so calm and so professional. She showed great compassion for my daughter and as I watched her work on Ashley I was so very grateful for her experience with Ash. I pray that someday I will get what it is He is trying to teach me. I want to really get it and to live it everyday.

Tonight my youngest daughter is resting and I am hoping to rest too. My prayer is that I will be able to rest in the arms of the Father. The Father who gave life to my daughter the day she was born. The Father who gave a second chance at life to my daughter the night of her transplant. The Father who spared her life tonight. The Father who gives life to all. Resting sounds so good to me. I just want to rest in Him tonight and allow Him to hold me and my Ashley.