I kissed her little head

I was hear for about 2 hours before I touched Ash. I leaned over and whispered in her ear to let her know that I was here and I love her. I then leaned over and kissed her little head. She was so cold that for a moment I thought she was gone. After a couple of seconds I remembered all the monitors and I looked up and saw the little green, white, yellow and red lines and numbers that we have become so accustomed to. It was so heartbreaking to me to have to read a monitor to see if my Gherkin is alive. She is so far gone with drugs, procedures and intervention that I couldn't even tell if she was alive without looking at the numbers. It hurts my heart to see her like this. I guess it is time to admit Trish is much tougher than I. She has lived this series of events many more times than I have. I thank God for giving Trish to Ashley.

The nurse tells us that she is doing better in that her heart, blood pressure, color and temperature are becoming more stable. She said at this point the respiration and kidneys are the main concern. She was encouraged that the other things have stabled. I guess some progress is better than none so I will be thankful for what we have been given.

Thanks for checking on Ash, we will post more as the night progresses.

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