I used to wonder "why me"? Out of all the mommies in the world why me? He could have picked anyone, but for some reason He picked me. I think I'm learning a little more each day why He chose me.
I believe He chose me because I could not have looked upon the face of this tiny miracle and walked away. Nothing in this world could have made me. I loved her. I wanted her. I prayed for her. I would never say to Him, "Oh no, Lord. Not this child. I couldn't love this one." He had been preparing my heart for her. For our Ashley. Many, many years before she was even born.
I used to think that anyone would have loved her. I used to believe that if she were offered to any mom out there that they would do what I have done. I don't believe that anymore. It breaks my heart to know that there are a few people who look at my daughter and see no value. Nothing worth loving. Nothing worth fighting for. Nothing worth giving life to. Oh my goodness you would have missed out had He offered her to you and you chose to walk away. Oh my goodness the world would have missed out if it did not have her in it.
Ashley Kate is worth every moment of every struggle. Her life is valuable and He alone gave it to her. He alone preserves it. He alone will choose when to take it. Nothing I have done, will do, or hope to do will extend it for one more moment, one more breath, one more heart beat.
Why me? Because He loved me. Why me? Because I am blessed. Why me? Because He heard my cry. Why me? Because He wanted to give me the desires of my heart. Why me? Because He has a plan for me and for my family and for my sweet Ashley Kate. Why me? Because my heart was and is willing to love on a miracle.
Dave and I know that we were called to be her parents from the moment she was "knit together". Broken or not. Perfect or not. Valued by the world or not. She was born to be our daughter. She was born to complete our family. She was born to bring glory to God.
I am so thankful the Father thought of me. So thankful the Father created her. So thankful He sees her differently than the world sees her. She is priceless! So valuable to the heart of her Creator and to the hearts of our family. It s my privilege to share her story with each one of you. Thank you for seeing the value in our baby's life. Thank you for loving her. Thank you for loving Him.