Just Too Quiet
A day without our sweet Ashley Kate's laughter and nonsense just doesn't feel right. She continued to sleep the entire day and is still sleeping as I type. The house is so, so quiet. We have become spoiled with her silly behavior and her antics. The kids have tip toed in and out of her nursery just hoping to catch her awake. We have all missed her today.
She has no fever and has not given up any more "offerings". For this we are really thankful. She just seems worn out. I have seen no signs of infection brewing so for now we are just letting her rest. My prayer is that she will wake in the morning smiling, ornery, and ready to give her therapist a whole lot of trouble.
I honestly don't remember what our life was like before our little one came along. The last two years have been packed full. When I think back over them one word comes to my mind that sums it all up. BLESSED. Our life has been blessed. Our home has been blessed. Our family has been blessed. From the moment I answered the phone to be told that our sweet Ashley had been born the Father has shown Himself. Sometimes He showed us just who He was in small, quiet ways. Sometimes He showed us His presence in very large, miraculous ways. Always He has been with us. Carrying our burdens. Listening to our cries. Collecting our tears. Smiling as we praised and rejoiced. Ashley's life has taught me who our God is and I will forever be grateful for that lesson. We are blessed.
Sure there were and probably still will be hard and difficult days, but when I see her smile those days fade away. The place that we find ourselves in today is a peaceful place full of gratitude, reverence, awe, and thanksgiving. Again I will say that He is good.
Thank you for checking on Ash today and thank you to all of you who prayed for her today. Someday I hope to have the opportunity to thank you in person whether it be here or on the other side. Good night and God bless. Trish