Looking for the Blessings

I will not hide the fact that it has been a frightening and difficult time for me, but this morning I have found myself at peace with what is happening and I am able to look past this and find the blessings that surround us.

The biggest blessing is that my tough little one IS stable. She is much stronger than she was last year at this time and you would be PROUD to see how she is holding on. Her vitals are strong. Her blood pressure is amazingly strong and the fact that God is protecting her does not escape me.

She is losing a lot of blood and her bowel is very ill, but she is not in pain. She does not cry or moan or grunt. She looks comfortable while she sleeps. I realize she is weak and anemic, but she is not struggling and for this I am thankful. To see her hurt kills me inside.


Her labs looked better. Her h and h did not drop as quickly as it had been. She is currently not receiving a transfusion. This is the first hour since we arrived here on the floor that someone else's blood has not been running into her veins. I think that is progress. I can't express how grateful I am for all those who donate blood. You have saved my sweet girl's life and you are loved. We will not check again until 12:00.

This room is a huge blessing. Quiet, peaceful, dark for her to rest in. I am so grateful.

For diet coke and cheerios I am thankful! They have become my staples during this stay. Thanks Holly for restocking me. I love ya!

Thank you for praying for us this morning. I am feeling at peace and I am gaining a little more stability. I know it is a direct result of the many prayers being said. For sticking it out with us and choosing to walk along side of us I thank you. I know it is difficult. Expecting to hear great news and then being let down. The emotional twists and turns, but oh what joy I hope you have been a part of when God's hand reaches down and pulls her through. It is exhausting and I appreciate your faithfulness. Somehow I hope you are blessed as much as you bless us.

I am going to lay down for a little while. I will share what I know when I know it. Thank you again. We are still blessed.



(As I showered this morning I almost cried because I was so grateful to have that shower. It is the best shower I have had in weeks! Plenty of hot water, lots of room, great water pressure, and no one pounding on the door trying to get in. I couldn't thank the Father enough for that shower. Privacy is a beautiful thing! All I need now is a couple of really good towels and I might think I was on vacation (thinking positive again!).